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♪

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You have cancer.

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Miss Bearing, you have

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advanced metastatic
ovarian cancer.

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[vehicle horns honking]

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Go on.

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You are a professor,
Miss Bearing.

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Like yourself,
Dr. Kelekian.

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Why, yes.

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Now, then you present

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with a growth that
unfortunately went

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undetected in stages
one, two, and three.

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Now it is an insidious
adenocarcinoma...

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Insidious?

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Insidious means undetectable
at an early stage--

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Insidious means
treacherous.

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Shall I continue?

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By all means.

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Good. In invasive
epithelial carcinoma,

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the most effective
treatment modality is

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a chemotherapeutic agent.

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We are developing
an experimental combination

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of drugs designed
for primary-site ovarian,

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for the target specificity
of stage three

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and beyond administration.

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Am I going too fast?

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No.

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You will be hospitalized
as an in-patient

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for treatment each cycle.

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After the initial
eight cycles,

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you will have another
battery of tests.

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The antineoplastic
will inevitably affect

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some healthy cells,

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including those lining
the gastrointestinal tract

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from the lips to the anus
and the hair follicles.

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We will, of course, be
relying on your resolve

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to withstand some of
the more pernicious

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side-effects.

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Miss Bearing?

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Oh. I beg your pardon.

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[clears throat]

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Do you have any
questions so far?

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Please go on.

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Perhaps some of these
terms are new...

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No, no. You're being
very thorough.

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I make a point of it.

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And I always emphasize
it with my students.

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Oh, so do I.

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Thoroughness. I always
tell my students,

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but, they are
constitutionally averse

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to painstaking work.

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Yours, too?

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Oh, it's worse
every year.

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Mine are blind.

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Oh, well, mine are deaf.

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You just have to hope.

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Mm-hmm. I suppose so.

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Where were we, Dr. Bearing?

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I believe I was being
thoroughly diagnosed.

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Right.

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Now, the tumor is
spreading very quickly.

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And this treatment
is very aggressive.

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So far, so good?

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Yes.

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Better not teach
next semester.

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Out of the question.

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The first week of each cycle,

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you'll be hospitalized
for chemotherapy.

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The next week, you may
feel a little tired.

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The next two weeks

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will be fine,
relatively.

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Eight months like that.

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This treatment is
the strongest thing

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we have to offer you.

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And as research,
it'll make

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a significant contribution
to our knowledge.

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Knowledge...yes.

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Here is the informed
consent form.

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Should you agree, you
sign there at the bottom.

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Is there a family member you
want me to explain this to?

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Oh, that won't
be necessary.

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Good.

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The important thing is
for you to take

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the full dose of
chemotherapy.

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There may be times
when you'll wish

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for a lesser dose due
to the side-effects.

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But we've got
to go full force.

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Dr. Bearing?

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Yes.

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You must be very tough.

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Do you think you can
be very tough?

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You needn't worry.

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Good.

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Excellent.

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I should have asked
more questions.

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But if I knew there
was going to be a test.

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Hi. How you
feeling today?

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Fine.

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Great. That's just great.

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This is not my standard
greeting, I assure you.

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I tend toward something
a little more formal,

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a little less inquisitive,

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such as, say, "Hello."

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But it is the standard
greeting here,

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so I just say, "Fine."

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Of course, it is not very
often that I do feel fine.

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I have been asked "How are
you feeling today?,"

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while I was throwing up
into a plastic washbasin.

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I have been asked

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as I was emerging
from a four-hour operation

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with a tube
in every orifice:

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"How are you feeling today?"

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I'm waiting for the moment
when someone asks me

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this question and I am dead.

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I'm a little sorry
I'll miss that.

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I have cancer,

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insidious cancer, with
pernicious side-effects.

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No, the treatment
has pernicious side-effects.

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I have stage four
metastatic ovarian cancer.

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There is no stage five.

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Oh. And I have to be
very tough.

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It appears to be a matter,
as the saying goes...

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of life and death.

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I know all about
life and death.

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I am, after all, a professor
of 17th-century poetry

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specializing in the Holy
Sonnets of John Donne...

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which explore mortality
in greater depth

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than any other body of work
in the English language.

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And I know for a fact
that I am tough.

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A demanding professor,

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uncompromising,

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never one to turn
from a challenge.

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That is why I chose
to study John Donne

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while a student
of the great E.M. Ashford.

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[knock on door]

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Oh, yes.

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Your essay on
Holy Sonnet VI,

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Miss Bearing,

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is a melodrama
with a veneer

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of scholarship
unworthy of you

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to say nothing of Donne.
Do it again.

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Oh. I...

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Begin with the text,
Miss Bearing,

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not with a feeling.

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"Death
be not proud,

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"though some have
called thee

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"Mighty and dreadful,
for, thou art not so..."

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You've entirely missed
the point of the poem

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because, I must say,
you've used

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an edition of the text

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that is inauthentically
punctuated.

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In the Gardner edition
of the text...

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Well, that edition
is checked out of the li--

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Miss Bearing?

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Oh. Sorry.

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You take this
too lightly.

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This is
metaphysical poetry,

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not the modern
novel.

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The standards
of scholarship

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and critical
reading which one

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would apply
to any other text,

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are simply
insufficient.

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The effort
must be total

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for the results
to be meaningful.

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Do you think that
the punctuation

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of the last line
of this sonnet is

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merely an insignificant
detail?

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The sonnet begins

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with a valiant struggle
with death,

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calling on
all the forces

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of intellect and drama
to vanquish the enemy.

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But it is ultimately
about overcoming

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the seemingly
insuperable barriers

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separating life, death,
and eternal life.

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In the edition
you chose,

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this profoundly
simple meaning

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is sacrificed to
hysterical punctuation.

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"And Death,"
capital D...

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"shall be no more;"

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Semi-colon.

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"Death," capital D,
comma...

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"thou shalt die!",

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exclamation mark.

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If you go in for
this sort of thing,

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I suggest you take
up Shakespeare.

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Gardner's edition
of the Holy Sonnets

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returns to the
Westmoreland manuscript

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source of 1610.

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Not for sentimental
reasons, I assure you,

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but because Helen
Gardner is a scholar.

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It reads: "And death
shall be no more,"

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comma,
"Death thou shalt die!"

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Nothing but a breath,
a comma,

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separates life
from life everlasting.

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Very simple, really.

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With the original
punctuation restored,

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death is
no longer something

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to act out on a stage
with exclamation marks.

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It is a comma. A pause.

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In this way--
the uncompromising way--

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one learns
something from the poem,

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wouldn't you say?

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Life, death, soul, God,

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past, present.

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Not insuperable
barriers,

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not semicolons.

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Just a comma.

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Life, death. I see.

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It's a metaphysical
conceit. It's wit.

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I'll go back to the
library and rewrite--

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It is not wit,
Miss Bearing.

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It is truth.

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The paper's not
the point.

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Isn't it?

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Vivian, you're
a bright young woman.

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Use your intelligence.

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Don't go back to
the library. Go out.

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Enjoy yourself
with friends, hmm?

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VIVIAN, VOICE-OVER:
I went outside.

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It was a warm day. I...

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There were students on
the lawn talking about, well,

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nothing, laughing.

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Simple human truth.

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Uncompromising
scholarly standards.

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They're connected.

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I just couldn't...

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I went back to the library.

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Anyway...

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All right.

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"Significant
contribution to knowledge."

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"Eight cycles of chemotherapy."

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Give me the full dose,

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the full dose, every time.

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VIVIAN, VOICE-OVER:
The attention was flattering...

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for the first five minutes.

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[man coughs]

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Name?

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My name?

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Vivian Bearing.

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Huh?

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Bearing. B-e-a-r-i-n-g.

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Vivian. V-i-v-i-a-n.

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Doctor?

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Yes, I have a Ph.D.

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Your doctor?

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Oh! Dr. Harvey Kelekian.

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I am a doctor
of philosophy...

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Take a deep breath
and hold it.

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[inhales]

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OK.
[Vivian exhales]

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a scholar of
17th-century poetry.

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Arms above your head,
and hold it.

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[machine beeps]

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OK.

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I have made
an immeasurable contribution

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to the discipline
of English literature.

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I am, in short, a force.

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OK, that's it.

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Name?

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Lucy, Countess
of Bedford.

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I don't see it here.

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My name is
Vivian Bearing.

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B-e-a-r-i-n-g.

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Dr. Kelekian is my doctor.

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OK, lie down.

269
00:13:11,433 --> 00:13:14,667
VIVIAN: After an astounding
undergraduate career...

270
00:13:14,667 --> 00:13:17,400
I studied for three years
with Professor E.M. Ashford,

271
00:13:17,400 --> 00:13:19,767
during which time I learned
by instruction and example

272
00:13:19,767 --> 00:13:22,967
what it means to be
a scholar of distinction.

273
00:13:22,967 --> 00:13:25,834
As her research fellow,
my principal task was

274
00:13:25,834 --> 00:13:28,500
the alphabetizing
of index cards

275
00:13:28,500 --> 00:13:30,800
for Ashford's monumental
critical edition

276
00:13:30,800 --> 00:13:36,166
of Donne's "Devotions
Upon Emergent Occasions."

277
00:13:36,166 --> 00:13:39,300
I am thanked in the preface:

278
00:13:39,300 --> 00:13:43,767
"Miss Vivian Bearing
for her able assistance."

279
00:13:50,266 --> 00:13:51,767
Thank you.

280
00:13:58,700 --> 00:14:01,266
Where's your wheelchair?

281
00:14:01,266 --> 00:14:02,867
I do not know.

282
00:14:02,867 --> 00:14:05,166
I was busy just now.

283
00:14:05,166 --> 00:14:07,033
Well, how you gonna
get out of here?

284
00:14:07,033 --> 00:14:09,233
I could walk.

285
00:14:09,233 --> 00:14:10,834
It's not permitted.

286
00:14:10,834 --> 00:14:13,767
Well, I do not know. Perhaps
you would like me to stay.

287
00:14:13,767 --> 00:14:16,567
I guess I got to go
find you a chair.

288
00:14:18,266 --> 00:14:21,033
Don't inconvenience
yourself on my behalf.

289
00:14:21,033 --> 00:14:23,100
WOMAN: ...cc drip...

290
00:14:23,100 --> 00:14:24,433
You want
their feedback?

291
00:14:24,433 --> 00:14:27,100
MAN: Sure. If you
can, make it 4...

292
00:14:27,100 --> 00:14:28,800
Ms. Bearing,
this is Jason Posner.

293
00:14:28,800 --> 00:14:30,800
He's gonna do
your medical history

294
00:14:30,800 --> 00:14:32,633
and ask you
a few questions.

295
00:14:32,633 --> 00:14:34,467
He's Dr. Kelekian's
fellow.

296
00:14:34,467 --> 00:14:35,767
Professor Bearing,
I'm Dr. Posner,

297
00:14:35,767 --> 00:14:36,967
clinical fellow

298
00:14:36,967 --> 00:14:38,166
at the medical
oncology branch,

299
00:14:38,166 --> 00:14:39,967
working
with Dr. Kelekian.

300
00:14:39,967 --> 00:14:41,333
Sit over here,
please.

301
00:14:41,333 --> 00:14:42,500
Professor Bearing,

302
00:14:42,500 --> 00:14:44,166
I was a student
at the university.

303
00:14:44,166 --> 00:14:45,567
I took your course

304
00:14:45,567 --> 00:14:46,967
in 17th-century
poetry.

305
00:14:46,967 --> 00:14:48,367
Did you?

306
00:14:48,367 --> 00:14:49,834
Yes. I thought
it was excellent.

307
00:14:49,834 --> 00:14:52,300
Well, thank you. Were
you an English major?

308
00:14:52,300 --> 00:14:54,633
No. Biochemistry.

309
00:14:54,633 --> 00:14:56,066
But you can't get
into med school

310
00:14:56,066 --> 00:14:57,867
unless
you're well-rounded.

311
00:14:57,867 --> 00:14:58,967
And I made a bet
with myself that I

312
00:14:58,967 --> 00:15:00,100
could get an A

313
00:15:00,100 --> 00:15:01,233
in the three hardest
courses on campus.

314
00:15:01,233 --> 00:15:02,367
How did you do, Jase?

315
00:15:02,367 --> 00:15:03,667
Success.

316
00:15:03,667 --> 00:15:05,633
Really?
A-minus.

317
00:15:05,633 --> 00:15:08,300
It was a very tough
course.

318
00:15:10,633 --> 00:15:12,066
Yeah,
I'll call you.

319
00:15:12,066 --> 00:15:13,233
OK.

320
00:15:17,300 --> 00:15:20,266
I'll wheel this over.

321
00:15:20,266 --> 00:15:24,767
OK, now, I'm going to be
taking your history,

322
00:15:24,767 --> 00:15:26,433
which is a medical
interview,

323
00:15:26,433 --> 00:15:27,967
and then I give you
an exam.

324
00:15:27,967 --> 00:15:30,900
I believe Dr. Kelekian
has already done that.

325
00:15:30,900 --> 00:15:32,600
Well, I know,
but Dr. Kelekian

326
00:15:32,600 --> 00:15:33,867
wanted me to do
one, too.

327
00:15:33,867 --> 00:15:35,533
Very well.

328
00:15:35,533 --> 00:15:37,533
OK, let's just
get started.

329
00:15:37,533 --> 00:15:39,633
Uh...how are you
feeling today?

330
00:15:39,633 --> 00:15:40,800
Fine, thank you.
Excellent.

331
00:15:40,800 --> 00:15:41,834
And how's your
general health?

332
00:15:41,834 --> 00:15:44,100
Fine.
Good.

333
00:15:44,100 --> 00:15:45,967
Now, we know that
you're an academic.

334
00:15:45,967 --> 00:15:47,467
VIVIAN: Mm-hmm. Yes,
we've established that.

335
00:15:47,467 --> 00:15:49,500
So we don't need to talk
about your interesting work.

336
00:15:49,500 --> 00:15:51,166
No.

337
00:15:51,166 --> 00:15:53,800
Uh, how old are you?
48.

338
00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:55,133
Are you married?
No.

339
00:15:55,133 --> 00:15:56,667
Are your parents living?
No.

340
00:15:56,667 --> 00:15:58,133
How and when did they die?

341
00:15:58,133 --> 00:16:01,333
My father, suddenly,
of a heart attack when

342
00:16:01,333 --> 00:16:03,300
I was 21.

343
00:16:03,300 --> 00:16:06,066
My mother, slowly,
when I was 41 or 42,

344
00:16:06,066 --> 00:16:07,800
of cancer,
breast cancer.

345
00:16:07,800 --> 00:16:09,667
Cancer?
Yeah. Breast cancer.

346
00:16:09,667 --> 00:16:12,633
I see. Any siblings?
No.

347
00:16:12,633 --> 00:16:14,033
Now I'm going
to ask you

348
00:16:14,033 --> 00:16:15,600
about your past
medical history.

349
00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:17,400
Have you ever been
hospitalized?

350
00:16:17,400 --> 00:16:19,767
Yes. I had my tonsils
out when I was eight.

351
00:16:19,767 --> 00:16:21,233
Have you ever
been pregnant?

352
00:16:21,233 --> 00:16:22,200
No.

353
00:16:22,200 --> 00:16:23,200
Heart murmurs?
No.

354
00:16:23,200 --> 00:16:25,000
High blood pressure?
No.

355
00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:26,266
Venereal diseases,
uterine infections...

356
00:16:26,266 --> 00:16:27,300
[clears throat]
No.

357
00:16:27,300 --> 00:16:29,300
Thyroid, diabetes,
cancer...

358
00:16:29,300 --> 00:16:30,367
No. Well, cancer, yes.

359
00:16:30,367 --> 00:16:31,967
Well, when?

360
00:16:31,967 --> 00:16:33,400
Now.

361
00:16:33,400 --> 00:16:35,533
Well, not including now.

362
00:16:35,533 --> 00:16:37,967
In that case, no.

363
00:16:37,967 --> 00:16:40,433
OK. Uh...

364
00:16:40,433 --> 00:16:42,000
clinical depression,
nervous breakdown,

365
00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:43,266
suicide attempts...

366
00:16:43,266 --> 00:16:44,367
No.

367
00:16:44,367 --> 00:16:45,433
Do you smoke?
No.

368
00:16:45,433 --> 00:16:47,166
Ethanol.

369
00:16:47,166 --> 00:16:48,500
I beg your pardon?

370
00:16:48,500 --> 00:16:49,767
Alcohol.

371
00:16:49,767 --> 00:16:52,333
Oh. Ethanol.

372
00:16:52,333 --> 00:16:53,834
Yes, I drink wine.

373
00:16:53,834 --> 00:16:55,066
How much? How often?

374
00:16:55,066 --> 00:16:57,133
A glass with
dinner occasionally,

375
00:16:57,133 --> 00:17:00,066
and perhaps a scotch
every now and then.

376
00:17:00,066 --> 00:17:01,433
Do you use
any substances?

377
00:17:01,433 --> 00:17:02,600
Such as?

378
00:17:02,600 --> 00:17:05,367
Marijuana, cocaine,
crack cocaine, PCP, ecstasy,

379
00:17:05,367 --> 00:17:06,600
poppers...
No.

380
00:17:07,633 --> 00:17:09,000
Do you drink
caffeinated beverages?

381
00:17:09,000 --> 00:17:10,000
Oh, yes.

382
00:17:10,000 --> 00:17:10,967
Which ones?

383
00:17:10,967 --> 00:17:12,967
Coffee,
a few cups a day.

384
00:17:12,967 --> 00:17:15,033
OK. How many?

385
00:17:15,033 --> 00:17:17,266
Two to six.

386
00:17:17,266 --> 00:17:19,600
But I really don't think
that's immoderate.

387
00:17:19,600 --> 00:17:21,767
How often do you undergo
routine medical checkups?

388
00:17:21,767 --> 00:17:23,233
Well, not as often
as I should probably,

389
00:17:23,233 --> 00:17:24,300
but I've felt fine.

390
00:17:24,300 --> 00:17:26,133
I really have.

391
00:17:26,133 --> 00:17:27,767
So the answer is?

392
00:17:27,767 --> 00:17:31,100
Every three
to five years.

393
00:17:31,100 --> 00:17:34,467
What do you do
for exercise?

394
00:17:34,467 --> 00:17:35,900
Pace.

395
00:17:37,934 --> 00:17:40,300
Are you having
sexual relations?

396
00:17:40,300 --> 00:17:41,900
Not at the moment.

397
00:17:42,934 --> 00:17:44,967
Are you pre
or post-menopausal?

398
00:17:44,967 --> 00:17:46,433
Post.

399
00:17:46,433 --> 00:17:47,900
When did your
periods stop?

400
00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:49,433
About two years ago.

401
00:17:50,834 --> 00:17:52,934
OK. Uh...

402
00:17:54,367 --> 00:17:56,000
When did you first notice
your present complaint?

403
00:17:56,000 --> 00:17:57,166
This time now?

404
00:17:57,166 --> 00:17:58,300
Yes.

405
00:17:58,300 --> 00:18:00,934
Oh. Um, well, about
four months ago,

406
00:18:00,934 --> 00:18:03,500
I felt a pain
in my stomach,

407
00:18:03,500 --> 00:18:04,800
in my abdomen.

408
00:18:04,800 --> 00:18:06,500
Um, like a cramp,
but not the same.

409
00:18:06,500 --> 00:18:07,734
How did it feel?

410
00:18:07,734 --> 00:18:09,166
Like a cramp.

411
00:18:09,166 --> 00:18:10,266
But not the same?

412
00:18:10,266 --> 00:18:11,834
Duller and stronger.
But I can't describe it.

413
00:18:11,834 --> 00:18:13,533
Mm-hmm.
What happened next?

414
00:18:13,533 --> 00:18:14,700
Well, I just--

415
00:18:14,700 --> 00:18:16,033
I don't know...

416
00:18:16,033 --> 00:18:17,567
I started noticing
my body. Little things.

417
00:18:17,567 --> 00:18:20,600
I would be teaching
and feel a sharp pain.

418
00:18:20,600 --> 00:18:21,867
What kind of pain?

419
00:18:21,867 --> 00:18:23,800
Sharp...

420
00:18:23,800 --> 00:18:25,266
and sudden.

421
00:18:25,266 --> 00:18:28,133
Then it would go away,
or I would be tired...

422
00:18:28,133 --> 00:18:29,200
exhausted.

423
00:18:29,200 --> 00:18:31,000
I was working on
a major project...

424
00:18:31,000 --> 00:18:32,734
the article
on John Donne

425
00:18:32,734 --> 00:18:35,066
for the "Oxford
Encyclopedia of
English Literature."

426
00:18:35,066 --> 00:18:36,500
It was a great
honor,

427
00:18:36,500 --> 00:18:38,033
but I had a very
strict deadline.

428
00:18:38,033 --> 00:18:39,967
So would you say
you were under stress?

429
00:18:39,967 --> 00:18:41,934
It wasn't so much more
stress than usual.

430
00:18:41,934 --> 00:18:43,133
I just couldn't
withstand it this time.

431
00:18:43,133 --> 00:18:44,400
I don't know.

432
00:18:44,400 --> 00:18:46,767
So...

433
00:18:46,767 --> 00:18:48,200
So I went to see
Dr. Chin,

434
00:18:48,200 --> 00:18:49,266
my gynecologist,

435
00:18:49,266 --> 00:18:50,467
after I'd turned
in the article

436
00:18:50,467 --> 00:18:51,633
and explained
all this.

437
00:18:51,633 --> 00:18:52,767
She examined me,

438
00:18:52,767 --> 00:18:54,133
sent me to Jefferson,
the internist...

439
00:18:54,133 --> 00:18:55,467
who sent me to Kelekian

440
00:18:55,467 --> 00:18:57,033
because he thought
I might have a tumor.

441
00:18:58,500 --> 00:18:59,667
And that's it.

442
00:18:59,667 --> 00:19:01,133
Till now.

443
00:19:01,133 --> 00:19:02,700
That's very
interesting.

444
00:19:02,700 --> 00:19:07,867
Um, well, I guess
we'll start the exam.

445
00:19:07,867 --> 00:19:13,100
Why don't you just sort
of lie back and relax?

446
00:19:13,100 --> 00:19:14,600
[clears throat]

447
00:19:14,600 --> 00:19:16,200
Won't take a minute.

448
00:19:24,066 --> 00:19:25,233
[clears throat]

449
00:19:25,233 --> 00:19:27,600
Um, let me get
this sheet.

450
00:19:27,600 --> 00:19:29,333
Here.

451
00:19:29,333 --> 00:19:32,133
OK. OK.

452
00:19:32,133 --> 00:19:35,100
Um...um...oh, yes.

453
00:19:35,100 --> 00:19:36,934
Just...um...

454
00:19:39,600 --> 00:19:42,367
JASON: Um...just...

455
00:19:42,367 --> 00:19:44,333
Feet in the stirrups here.

456
00:19:44,333 --> 00:19:46,467
OK.

457
00:19:46,467 --> 00:19:48,533
[metal clanking]

458
00:19:51,633 --> 00:19:52,934
OK.

459
00:19:54,967 --> 00:19:56,100
Um...could you just...

460
00:19:56,100 --> 00:19:58,633
Uh, yeah.
Can't--

461
00:19:58,633 --> 00:20:00,633
There. OK.

462
00:20:00,633 --> 00:20:02,500
Good. OK.

463
00:20:02,500 --> 00:20:03,767
Um...

464
00:20:05,834 --> 00:20:06,900
OK.

465
00:20:06,900 --> 00:20:12,600
OK. Oh! Oh. I've got
to go get Susie.

466
00:20:12,600 --> 00:20:15,300
I got to have
a girl here.

467
00:20:15,300 --> 00:20:17,500
Some crazy
clinical rule.

468
00:20:17,500 --> 00:20:19,767
Don't move.
I'll be right back.

469
00:20:22,500 --> 00:20:23,633
Susie?

470
00:20:26,800 --> 00:20:29,600
I wish I had given
him an A.

471
00:20:30,567 --> 00:20:32,100
JASON: Susie!

472
00:20:35,533 --> 00:20:37,834
Two times one is two.

473
00:20:37,834 --> 00:20:39,433
Two times two
is four.

474
00:20:39,433 --> 00:20:41,533
Two times three is...

475
00:20:41,533 --> 00:20:43,133
six.

476
00:20:45,367 --> 00:20:46,633
Ohh.

477
00:20:55,333 --> 00:20:59,233
"Death be not proud,
though some have called thee

478
00:20:59,233 --> 00:21:05,367
"Mighty and dreadful,
for, thou art not so,"

479
00:21:05,367 --> 00:21:10,367
"For, those, whom thou
think'st, thou dost overthrow,

480
00:21:10,367 --> 00:21:16,433
Die not, poor Death,
nor yet canst thou kill me..."

481
00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:19,367
Has anybody
seen Susie?

482
00:21:26,367 --> 00:21:31,967
"One short sleep past,
we wake eternally,

483
00:21:31,967 --> 00:21:36,000
"And death shall be no more,"

484
00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:38,333
comma.

485
00:21:38,333 --> 00:21:41,767
"Death thou shalt die!"

486
00:21:45,033 --> 00:21:46,934
OK, here's
everything. OK.

487
00:21:46,934 --> 00:21:48,433
What is this? Why did
you leave her like this?

488
00:21:48,433 --> 00:21:51,266
JASON: I had to find
you. Now, come on.

489
00:21:51,266 --> 00:21:53,433
We're ready,
Professor Bearing.

490
00:21:53,433 --> 00:21:55,233
Just get this on.

491
00:21:55,233 --> 00:21:56,934
Uh...

492
00:21:58,867 --> 00:22:02,600
All right. All right.

493
00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:04,667
Just get this up.

494
00:22:04,667 --> 00:22:06,567
Ooh, just relax.

495
00:22:10,834 --> 00:22:13,100
OK. Isn't
that interesting, Susie,

496
00:22:13,100 --> 00:22:15,000
that I had
Professor Bearing?

497
00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:16,133
Yeah.

498
00:22:16,133 --> 00:22:17,767
Yeah. I wish I had taken
some literature.

499
00:22:17,767 --> 00:22:19,266
I don't know
anything about poetry.

500
00:22:19,266 --> 00:22:20,467
JASON: Professor Bearing

501
00:22:20,467 --> 00:22:21,767
was very highly
regarded on campus.

502
00:22:21,767 --> 00:22:23,200
It looked very
good on my transcript

503
00:22:23,200 --> 00:22:24,600
that I had taken her course.

504
00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:25,767
They even asked me about it

505
00:22:25,767 --> 00:22:28,000
in my interview
to medical school.

506
00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:29,500
Jesus.

507
00:22:29,500 --> 00:22:30,667
What?

508
00:22:30,667 --> 00:22:31,900
What?

509
00:22:31,900 --> 00:22:34,166
Y-yeah, I survived
Bearing's course.

510
00:22:34,166 --> 00:22:35,667
And no problem.

511
00:22:35,667 --> 00:22:38,000
Yeah, John Donne, those
metaphysical poets,

512
00:22:38,000 --> 00:22:39,967
that metaphysical wit.

513
00:22:39,967 --> 00:22:42,467
Hardest poetry in
the English department.

514
00:22:42,467 --> 00:22:45,066
I'd like to see
them try biochemistry.

515
00:22:45,066 --> 00:22:48,633
OK. We're almost
done. All right.

516
00:22:48,633 --> 00:22:50,000
Yeah, OK.
Uh!

517
00:22:50,000 --> 00:22:54,500
Uh, that's it. We're done.

518
00:22:54,500 --> 00:22:58,467
Uh, OK. I got to go.

519
00:22:58,467 --> 00:23:01,467
Uh, take her feet out of...
Yeah.

520
00:23:18,800 --> 00:23:20,233
Thank you.

521
00:23:22,333 --> 00:23:24,333
I'm just gonna...

522
00:23:24,333 --> 00:23:25,767
[chair humming]

523
00:23:49,900 --> 00:23:52,333
VIVIAN, VOICE-OVER:
That was...

524
00:23:52,333 --> 00:23:54,600
hard.

525
00:23:55,867 --> 00:23:57,467
That was...

526
00:24:02,834 --> 00:24:04,633
One thing
that can be said

527
00:24:04,633 --> 00:24:06,667
for an eight-month course
of cancer treatment:

528
00:24:06,667 --> 00:24:08,700
It is...

529
00:24:08,700 --> 00:24:10,700
highly educational.

530
00:24:10,700 --> 00:24:13,433
I am learning to suffer.

531
00:24:15,433 --> 00:24:19,200
Yes, it is mildly uncomfortable
to have an electrocardiogram,

532
00:24:19,200 --> 00:24:20,767
but...

533
00:24:20,767 --> 00:24:25,066
the agony of a colonoscopy
sweeps it from memory.

534
00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:28,867
Yes, it was embarrassing
to have to wear a nightgown

535
00:24:28,867 --> 00:24:30,834
all day long.

536
00:24:30,834 --> 00:24:32,900
Two nightgowns.

537
00:24:32,900 --> 00:24:35,100
But that seemed like
a positive privilege

538
00:24:35,100 --> 00:24:38,166
compared to watching
myself go bald.

539
00:24:39,467 --> 00:24:43,500
Yes, having a former
student give me a pelvic exam

540
00:24:43,500 --> 00:24:46,500
was thoroughly...

541
00:24:46,500 --> 00:24:48,133
degrading.

542
00:24:48,133 --> 00:24:51,600
And I use the term
deliberately.

543
00:24:51,600 --> 00:24:53,300
But...

544
00:24:53,300 --> 00:24:57,633
I could not have imagined
the depths of humiliation.

545
00:25:13,133 --> 00:25:14,900
[coughing]

546
00:25:14,900 --> 00:25:17,600
Oh, God. It can't--

547
00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:19,066
Please--

548
00:25:22,967 --> 00:25:24,967
God help--

549
00:25:24,967 --> 00:25:27,633
Steady.

550
00:25:27,633 --> 00:25:29,934
Steady. Unh...

551
00:25:29,934 --> 00:25:32,066
Oh, God.

552
00:25:34,133 --> 00:25:36,166
[groaning]

553
00:25:42,834 --> 00:25:44,600
What's left?

554
00:25:46,500 --> 00:25:49,800
I haven't eaten in two days.

555
00:25:49,800 --> 00:25:51,767
What's left to puke?

556
00:25:57,300 --> 00:25:59,433
[breathing heavily]

557
00:26:03,633 --> 00:26:05,667
You may remark
that my vocabulary

558
00:26:05,667 --> 00:26:07,934
has taken a turn
for the Anglo-Saxon.

559
00:26:10,500 --> 00:26:12,967
God, I'm gonna barf
my brains out.

560
00:26:20,100 --> 00:26:23,233
If I did actually
barf my brains out...

561
00:26:26,100 --> 00:26:29,433
it would be a great
loss to my discipline.

562
00:26:29,433 --> 00:26:30,800
Of course, not a few
of my colleagues

563
00:26:30,800 --> 00:26:32,300
would be relieved

564
00:26:32,300 --> 00:26:33,900
to say nothing
of my students.

565
00:26:35,100 --> 00:26:37,600
It's not
that I'm controversial.

566
00:26:39,100 --> 00:26:41,400
Just uncompromising.

567
00:26:46,667 --> 00:26:48,600
[spitting]

568
00:26:50,667 --> 00:26:52,600
False alarm.

569
00:26:58,967 --> 00:27:01,467
If the word went round
that Vivian Bearing

570
00:27:01,467 --> 00:27:04,133
had barfed her brains out,
well,

571
00:27:04,133 --> 00:27:05,767
first my colleagues,
most of whom are

572
00:27:05,767 --> 00:27:08,233
my former students,

573
00:27:08,233 --> 00:27:11,734
would scramble
madly for my position.

574
00:27:11,734 --> 00:27:14,133
And then their consciences
would flare up.

575
00:27:14,133 --> 00:27:15,533
So to honor my memory,

576
00:27:15,533 --> 00:27:17,433
they would put together
a collection

577
00:27:17,433 --> 00:27:19,400
of their essays
about John Donne.

578
00:27:21,100 --> 00:27:24,433
The volume would begin
with a warm introduction,

579
00:27:24,433 --> 00:27:27,100
capturing my most
endearing qualities.

580
00:27:27,100 --> 00:27:30,400
It would be short
but sweet.

581
00:27:32,300 --> 00:27:34,567
"Published and Perished."

582
00:27:37,266 --> 00:27:41,266
Now, watch this.

583
00:27:41,266 --> 00:27:43,000
I have to ring the bell.

584
00:27:45,467 --> 00:27:46,800
[bell chimes]

585
00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:48,633
SUSIE: How you doing,
Ms. Bearing?

586
00:27:48,633 --> 00:27:50,166
You having some nausea?

587
00:27:50,166 --> 00:27:51,633
Uh, yes.

588
00:27:51,633 --> 00:27:54,500
OK, I'll be with
you in a second.

589
00:27:54,500 --> 00:27:59,934
Someone has to come
and measure this emesis

590
00:27:59,934 --> 00:28:03,166
and record it on a chart
of my intake and output.

591
00:28:03,166 --> 00:28:05,166
This counts as output.

592
00:28:05,166 --> 00:28:06,734
[door opens]

593
00:28:15,100 --> 00:28:17,934
It's about 300 CCs.

594
00:28:17,934 --> 00:28:20,100
Is that all?

595
00:28:20,100 --> 00:28:21,533
[liquid pouring]

596
00:28:21,533 --> 00:28:23,967
It was very hard work.

597
00:28:25,600 --> 00:28:28,300
Yup, 300.

598
00:28:28,300 --> 00:28:29,867
Good guess.

599
00:28:29,867 --> 00:28:31,667
[liquid pouring]

600
00:28:31,667 --> 00:28:33,166
OK.

601
00:28:33,166 --> 00:28:35,266
Is there anything
else I can get you?

602
00:28:35,266 --> 00:28:37,400
You want some Jell-O
or something?

603
00:28:37,400 --> 00:28:38,734
Thank you, no.

604
00:28:41,266 --> 00:28:43,967
Are you OK all
by yourself in here?

605
00:28:43,967 --> 00:28:45,433
Yes.

606
00:28:45,433 --> 00:28:46,734
You're not having
a lot of visitors,

607
00:28:46,734 --> 00:28:48,967
are you?

608
00:28:48,967 --> 00:28:52,300
None to be precise.

609
00:28:52,300 --> 00:28:54,934
I didn't think so.

610
00:28:54,934 --> 00:28:56,834
Is there somebody
you want me to call

611
00:28:56,834 --> 00:28:58,000
or something?

612
00:28:58,000 --> 00:29:00,667
That won't be necessary.

613
00:29:00,667 --> 00:29:02,500
I don't want visitors.

614
00:29:02,500 --> 00:29:04,000
OK.

615
00:29:04,000 --> 00:29:05,300
Well, I tell you what,

616
00:29:05,300 --> 00:29:08,333
I'll just pop my head in
every once in a while

617
00:29:08,333 --> 00:29:10,066
to see how you're doing,

618
00:29:10,066 --> 00:29:12,066
make sure you're OK.

619
00:29:12,066 --> 00:29:14,100
If you need anything,
you just ring.

620
00:29:14,100 --> 00:29:15,767
Thank you.

621
00:29:17,633 --> 00:29:18,867
OK.

622
00:29:23,934 --> 00:29:25,533
You just call.

623
00:29:34,367 --> 00:29:38,500
♪

624
00:30:04,233 --> 00:30:05,633
VIVIAN, VOICE-OVER:
Do not forget

625
00:30:05,633 --> 00:30:08,800
that you are seeing
the most interesting aspects

626
00:30:08,800 --> 00:30:10,734
of my tenure
as an in-patient

627
00:30:10,734 --> 00:30:13,233
receiving
experimental chemotherapy

628
00:30:13,233 --> 00:30:16,767
for advanced metastatic
ovarian cancer.

629
00:30:18,333 --> 00:30:22,467
But as I am a scholar,
I feel obliged to document

630
00:30:22,467 --> 00:30:25,300
what it is like
here most of the time

631
00:30:25,300 --> 00:30:27,934
between the dramatic
climaxes.

632
00:30:29,333 --> 00:30:33,800
In truth, it is like this.

633
00:30:33,800 --> 00:30:40,533
You cannot imagine
how time can be so still.

634
00:30:41,700 --> 00:30:43,800
It hangs.

635
00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:47,600
It weighs.

636
00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:49,967
And yet there is
so little of it.

637
00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:54,333
It goes so slowly.

638
00:30:54,333 --> 00:30:57,467
And yet it is so scarce.

639
00:30:59,500 --> 00:31:03,100
If I were writing this scene,
it would last a full 15 minutes.

640
00:31:03,100 --> 00:31:07,133
I would lie here
and you would sit there.

641
00:31:12,300 --> 00:31:18,266
Not to worry.
"Brevity is the soul of wit."

642
00:31:19,967 --> 00:31:24,066
But if you think eight
months of cancer treatment

643
00:31:24,066 --> 00:31:26,800
is tedious for all of you,

644
00:31:26,800 --> 00:31:30,266
consider how it feels
to play my part.

645
00:31:33,834 --> 00:31:36,133
All right. All right.

646
00:31:36,133 --> 00:31:39,633
Let's say
it's Friday morning.

647
00:31:39,633 --> 00:31:42,633
"Grand rounds"
is what they call it.

648
00:31:43,867 --> 00:31:45,567
Action!

649
00:31:45,567 --> 00:31:47,133
[loud metal clank]

650
00:31:48,100 --> 00:31:49,867
Dr. Bearing.

651
00:31:49,867 --> 00:31:51,133
VIVIAN: Dr. Kelekian.

652
00:31:51,133 --> 00:31:52,266
Professor Bearing, how are
you feeling today?

653
00:31:52,266 --> 00:31:53,300
Fine.

654
00:31:53,300 --> 00:31:54,700
JASON:
Great. Just great.

655
00:31:54,700 --> 00:31:55,834
Very late detection.

656
00:31:55,834 --> 00:31:57,533
Staged as a four
upon admission.

657
00:31:57,533 --> 00:32:00,233
Hexamethophosphacil with
Vinplatin to potentiate.

658
00:32:00,233 --> 00:32:03,367
Hex at 300 milligrams
per meter squared,

659
00:32:03,367 --> 00:32:04,367
Vin at 100.

660
00:32:04,367 --> 00:32:07,500
Today is cycle four,
day three.

661
00:32:07,500 --> 00:32:09,867
All cycles are
at the full dose.

662
00:32:09,867 --> 00:32:11,333
Primary site is here...

663
00:32:11,333 --> 00:32:12,500
behind the left
ovary.

664
00:32:12,500 --> 00:32:14,100
Metastases
are suspected

665
00:32:14,100 --> 00:32:15,400
in the peritoneal
cavity,

666
00:32:15,400 --> 00:32:16,767
mainly in this area
here.

667
00:32:16,767 --> 00:32:18,467
Full lymphatic
involvement.

668
00:32:18,467 --> 00:32:20,133
At the time of
first-look surgery,

669
00:32:20,133 --> 00:32:21,600
a significant part
of the tumor was

670
00:32:21,600 --> 00:32:24,033
de-bulked, mainly
in this area here.

671
00:32:24,033 --> 00:32:26,433
Left, right ovaries,
fallopian tubes,

672
00:32:26,433 --> 00:32:28,233
uterus, all out.

673
00:32:28,233 --> 00:32:29,967
Evidence of primary-site
shrinkage.

674
00:32:29,967 --> 00:32:32,533
Shrinking in metastases
has not been documented.

675
00:32:32,533 --> 00:32:35,934
Primary mass frankly
palpable in pelvic exam,

676
00:32:35,934 --> 00:32:38,500
all through here.

677
00:32:38,500 --> 00:32:42,500
Excellent command
of details. OK.

678
00:32:42,500 --> 00:32:43,900
Problem areas
with Hex and Vin?

679
00:32:43,900 --> 00:32:45,033
Myelosuppression.

680
00:32:45,033 --> 00:32:46,133
Of course there's
myelosuppression,

681
00:32:46,133 --> 00:32:47,400
a lowering of
blood-cell counts.

682
00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:48,734
That goes without saying.

683
00:32:48,734 --> 00:32:49,867
With this combination
of agents,

684
00:32:49,867 --> 00:32:52,133
nephrotoxicity will
be next.

685
00:32:52,133 --> 00:32:55,266
Anybody else?

686
00:32:56,633 --> 00:32:58,200
Side-effects?

687
00:32:58,200 --> 00:33:00,266
Nausea, vomiting.

688
00:33:00,266 --> 00:33:01,633
Jason?

689
00:33:01,633 --> 00:33:03,000
Routine.

690
00:33:03,000 --> 00:33:04,100
Pain while
urinating.

691
00:33:04,100 --> 00:33:05,900
Routine.
Psychological
depression?

692
00:33:05,900 --> 00:33:07,066
No way.

693
00:33:07,066 --> 00:33:08,200
KELEKIAN:
Anything else?

694
00:33:08,200 --> 00:33:10,800
Other complaints
with Hex and Vin?

695
00:33:11,967 --> 00:33:13,533
Come on.

696
00:33:14,867 --> 00:33:16,633
Mouth sores?

697
00:33:16,633 --> 00:33:18,166
Not yet.

698
00:33:18,166 --> 00:33:19,367
MALE FELLOW:
Skin rash?

699
00:33:19,367 --> 00:33:21,266
No.

700
00:33:21,266 --> 00:33:23,900
Why do we waste
our time, Dr. Bearing?

701
00:33:23,900 --> 00:33:25,934
I do not know,
Dr. Kelekian.

702
00:33:25,934 --> 00:33:28,934
Use your eyes.

703
00:33:32,934 --> 00:33:34,633
KELEKIAN:
Good grief.

704
00:33:34,633 --> 00:33:36,333
Hair loss.

705
00:33:36,333 --> 00:33:37,934
Come on!

706
00:33:37,934 --> 00:33:39,033
FELLOW 1:
Doesn't count.

707
00:33:39,033 --> 00:33:40,300
FELLOW 2:
You can see that!

708
00:33:40,300 --> 00:33:42,433
KELEKIAN:
Jason?

709
00:33:42,433 --> 00:33:44,967
Hair loss after first
cycle of treatment.

710
00:33:44,967 --> 00:33:47,133
KELEKIAN:
That's better.

711
00:33:47,133 --> 00:33:48,633
Dr. Bearing.

712
00:33:48,633 --> 00:33:50,734
Full dose?

713
00:33:54,300 --> 00:33:56,333
KELEKIAN:
Good. Excellent.

714
00:33:56,333 --> 00:33:59,133
Keep pushing
the fluids.

715
00:34:01,934 --> 00:34:03,400
Big
shot.

716
00:34:06,333 --> 00:34:07,500
Jason,
clinical.

717
00:34:07,500 --> 00:34:09,166
Oh, right. Um...

718
00:34:09,166 --> 00:34:10,333
thank you,
Professor Bearing.

719
00:34:10,333 --> 00:34:12,233
You've been
very cooperative.

720
00:34:17,967 --> 00:34:20,567
Wasn't that grand?

721
00:34:21,934 --> 00:34:26,600
Full of subservience,
hierarchies.

722
00:34:26,600 --> 00:34:30,333
Gratuitous displays,
sublimated rivalries.

723
00:34:30,333 --> 00:34:31,567
I feel completely at home.

724
00:34:31,567 --> 00:34:35,033
It is just like
a graduate seminar...

725
00:34:35,033 --> 00:34:37,667
with one important
difference--

726
00:34:37,667 --> 00:34:40,633
in grand rounds, they
read me like a book.

727
00:34:40,633 --> 00:34:42,967
Once I did the teaching.

728
00:34:42,967 --> 00:34:45,100
Now I am taught.

729
00:34:46,133 --> 00:34:47,300
This is much easier.

730
00:34:47,300 --> 00:34:49,767
I just hold still
and look cancerous.

731
00:34:51,066 --> 00:34:53,433
Jason was impressive,
wasn't he?

732
00:34:54,667 --> 00:34:56,300
I taught him, you know.

733
00:34:58,967 --> 00:35:02,066
Nephrotoxicity,
kidney poisoning,

734
00:35:02,066 --> 00:35:03,166
myelosuppression.

735
00:35:03,166 --> 00:35:05,834
They are medical terms.
I looked them up.

736
00:35:05,834 --> 00:35:09,133
It has always been my custom
to treat words with respect.

737
00:35:11,300 --> 00:35:14,600
I can recall the time,

738
00:35:14,600 --> 00:35:19,433
the very hour
of the very day

739
00:35:19,433 --> 00:35:22,567
when I knew words
would be my life's work.

740
00:35:22,567 --> 00:35:25,600
I like
that one best.

741
00:35:27,467 --> 00:35:29,700
Read another.

742
00:35:29,700 --> 00:35:33,300
I think I'll read

743
00:35:33,300 --> 00:35:36,367
"The Tale of
the Flopsy Bunnies."

744
00:35:39,834 --> 00:35:42,700
It has little bunnies
on the front.

745
00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:49,266
[exhales]

746
00:35:50,967 --> 00:35:53,834
"The Tale
of the Flopsy Bunnies"

747
00:35:53,834 --> 00:35:54,867
by...

748
00:35:54,867 --> 00:35:57,600
[pronounces BEE-uh-TIKS]
Beatrix Potter.

749
00:36:03,000 --> 00:36:04,867
"It is said
that the..."

750
00:36:04,867 --> 00:36:09,166
e--ef--"effect

751
00:36:09,166 --> 00:36:10,967
[reading slowly]
"of eating

752
00:36:10,967 --> 00:36:13,867
"too much lettuce...

753
00:36:13,867 --> 00:36:16,967
is...so--"

754
00:36:16,967 --> 00:36:19,000
sop--sopo--

755
00:36:19,000 --> 00:36:21,266
What is this word?

756
00:36:21,266 --> 00:36:23,166
Say it in bits.

757
00:36:23,166 --> 00:36:29,433
"Sop-or-i-fic."

758
00:36:29,433 --> 00:36:32,467
[so-poor-eye-fik]
So-por-i-fic.

759
00:36:32,467 --> 00:36:33,800
What does that mean?

760
00:36:33,800 --> 00:36:35,300
[SAW-per-IF-ik]
"Soporific"?

761
00:36:35,300 --> 00:36:36,667
Causing sleep.

762
00:36:38,300 --> 00:36:39,667
Causing sleep.

763
00:36:39,667 --> 00:36:40,934
Makes you sleepy.

764
00:36:42,867 --> 00:36:44,834
So-por-ific...

765
00:36:44,834 --> 00:36:46,467
means makes you sleepy.

766
00:36:46,467 --> 00:36:47,800
That's right.

767
00:36:49,633 --> 00:36:51,834
DAD: Now, use it
in a sentence.

768
00:36:52,967 --> 00:36:56,300
What has a soporific
effect on you?

769
00:36:56,300 --> 00:37:00,133
YOUNG VIVIAN: What has
a soporific effect on me?

770
00:37:00,133 --> 00:37:01,967
What makes
you sleepy?

771
00:37:03,367 --> 00:37:08,200
Uh...nothing.

772
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:09,967
[chuckles]
That's right.

773
00:37:12,600 --> 00:37:14,033
What about you?

774
00:37:15,300 --> 00:37:18,133
What has a soporific
effect on me?

775
00:37:18,133 --> 00:37:19,767
Let me think.

776
00:37:19,767 --> 00:37:21,300
Boring conversation,
I suppose,

777
00:37:21,300 --> 00:37:22,734
after dinner.

778
00:37:22,734 --> 00:37:24,633
Me, too.

779
00:37:24,633 --> 00:37:27,066
Boring conversation.

780
00:37:27,066 --> 00:37:28,800
Good, excellent.

781
00:37:28,800 --> 00:37:30,033
Carry on.

782
00:37:33,433 --> 00:37:36,233
VOICE OF YOUNG VIVIAN:
"It is said that the effect

783
00:37:36,233 --> 00:37:38,367
"of eating too much
lettuce is

784
00:37:38,367 --> 00:37:41,100
[SAW-per-IF-ik]
soporific."

785
00:37:41,100 --> 00:37:44,033
The little bunnies in
the picture are sleeping.

786
00:37:44,033 --> 00:37:46,400
They're sleeping, like
you said, because of...

787
00:37:46,400 --> 00:37:47,767
[SAW-poor-FIK]
soporific.

788
00:37:50,533 --> 00:37:52,266
The illustration bore out

789
00:37:52,266 --> 00:37:54,000
the meaning of the word

790
00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:55,767
just as he
had explained it.

791
00:37:56,967 --> 00:37:59,100
At the time,
it seemed like magic.

792
00:38:01,266 --> 00:38:04,667
So imagine the effect
the words of John Donne

793
00:38:04,667 --> 00:38:07,000
first had on me.

794
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:09,567
Ratiocination,
concatenation,

795
00:38:09,567 --> 00:38:11,433
coruscation,

796
00:38:11,433 --> 00:38:14,400
tergiversation.

797
00:38:14,400 --> 00:38:17,200
Medical terms are
less evocative.

798
00:38:19,500 --> 00:38:20,734
Still,

799
00:38:20,734 --> 00:38:23,834
I want to know what
the doctors mean

800
00:38:23,834 --> 00:38:26,266
when they anatomize me.

801
00:38:26,266 --> 00:38:30,266
My only defense is the
acquisition of vocabulary.

802
00:38:30,266 --> 00:38:34,400
♪

803
00:38:37,433 --> 00:38:40,433
[sirens]

804
00:38:40,433 --> 00:38:42,633
Fever
and neutropenia.

805
00:38:42,633 --> 00:38:44,467
OK, when did it start?

806
00:38:44,467 --> 00:38:46,533
I was at home reading.

807
00:38:46,533 --> 00:38:50,433
I felt so bad.
I got cold.

808
00:38:50,433 --> 00:38:52,567
Fever and neutropenia.
They said to come in.

809
00:38:52,567 --> 00:38:53,867
Well, you did
the right thing.

810
00:38:53,867 --> 00:38:54,934
Now, did somebody
drive you?

811
00:38:54,934 --> 00:38:56,166
A cab, cab.
I took a taxi.

812
00:38:56,166 --> 00:38:57,266
OK.

813
00:38:58,800 --> 00:39:00,800
Can you walk?
Yes.

814
00:39:03,734 --> 00:39:05,800
OK, just sit
here a minute.

815
00:39:05,800 --> 00:39:07,467
I'll get Jason. He's
on call tonight,

816
00:39:07,467 --> 00:39:10,300
and we'll get him to
give you some meds.

817
00:39:10,300 --> 00:39:12,734
I'm glad I was
here tonight.

818
00:39:12,734 --> 00:39:14,900
I'm gonna get you
to a bed soon, OK?

819
00:39:14,900 --> 00:39:16,200
[device beeping]

820
00:39:19,433 --> 00:39:20,867
I'm gonna get you some
juice, some nice juice,

821
00:39:20,867 --> 00:39:23,233
with lots of ice, OK?

822
00:39:23,233 --> 00:39:26,834
Lights. I left all
the lights on at my house.

823
00:39:26,834 --> 00:39:28,700
Don't worry about it.
It'll be OK.

824
00:39:42,266 --> 00:39:44,467
Professor Bearing,
how you feeling?

825
00:39:44,467 --> 00:39:46,166
My teeth are chattering.

826
00:39:46,166 --> 00:39:47,233
JASON: Vitals?

827
00:39:47,233 --> 00:39:51,600
Temp 102, pulse 120,
respiration 36.

828
00:39:51,600 --> 00:39:53,667
Fever and neutropenia.
It's a shake and bake.

829
00:39:53,667 --> 00:39:56,133
Blood culture
and urine, stat.

830
00:39:56,133 --> 00:39:57,433
Admit her.

831
00:39:57,433 --> 00:39:59,100
Prepare her
for reverse isolation.

832
00:39:59,100 --> 00:40:01,133
Start
with acetaminophen.

833
00:40:01,133 --> 00:40:03,266
Vitals every four hours.

834
00:40:05,633 --> 00:40:06,967
I'll be right back.

835
00:40:08,300 --> 00:40:10,867
Jason, I think you need
to talk to Kelekian

836
00:40:10,867 --> 00:40:12,266
about lowering the dose
for the next cycle.

837
00:40:12,266 --> 00:40:14,467
It's too much for her
like this.

838
00:40:14,467 --> 00:40:15,667
Lower the dose?
No way. She's tough.

839
00:40:15,667 --> 00:40:17,300
She can take it.
Full dose.

840
00:40:17,300 --> 00:40:19,133
Wake me when the counts
come from the lab.

841
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:50,900
Good morning,
Dr. Bearing.

842
00:40:50,900 --> 00:40:52,667
Full dose.

843
00:40:52,667 --> 00:40:56,533
Definite progress.
Everything OK?

844
00:40:56,533 --> 00:40:58,367
Yes.

845
00:40:58,367 --> 00:40:59,834
You're doing swell.

846
00:40:59,834 --> 00:41:02,533
Isolation's no problem.
A couple of days.

847
00:41:02,533 --> 00:41:04,800
Think of it as a vacation.

848
00:41:04,800 --> 00:41:06,033
Oh.

849
00:41:15,300 --> 00:41:16,834
Jason!
What?

850
00:41:16,834 --> 00:41:18,500
Oh, OK.

851
00:41:26,500 --> 00:41:32,266
In isolation, I am isolated.

852
00:41:33,467 --> 00:41:37,166
For once, I can use
a term literally.

853
00:41:37,166 --> 00:41:39,867
The chemotherapeutic agents

854
00:41:39,867 --> 00:41:42,200
eradicating my cancer

855
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:47,000
have also eradicated
my immune system.

856
00:41:47,000 --> 00:41:50,000
In my present condition,

857
00:41:50,000 --> 00:41:54,300
every living thing is
a health hazard to me...

858
00:41:56,667 --> 00:41:59,567
I really have not
got time for this.

859
00:41:59,567 --> 00:42:03,000
particularly health-care
professionals.

860
00:42:03,000 --> 00:42:04,367
Just to check
the IandO sheets

861
00:42:04,367 --> 00:42:05,500
for one minute takes me

862
00:42:05,500 --> 00:42:07,000
a half an hour
to do precautions.

863
00:42:07,000 --> 00:42:09,200
Oh.

864
00:42:09,200 --> 00:42:11,567
5, 7, 11, 250 twice.

865
00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:13,734
[peremptorily]
OK.

866
00:42:17,633 --> 00:42:22,500
Oh. Um, Professor Bearing,
how are you feeling today?

867
00:42:22,500 --> 00:42:24,633
Fine, just shaking sometimes

868
00:42:24,633 --> 00:42:26,967
from the chills.

869
00:42:26,967 --> 00:42:30,000
IV should kick in
anytime now. No problem.

870
00:42:30,000 --> 00:42:31,133
Listen, I got to go.

871
00:42:31,133 --> 00:42:33,500
Keep pushing
the fluids, OK?

872
00:42:33,500 --> 00:42:34,767
Hmm...

873
00:42:44,834 --> 00:42:46,667
I am not in isolation

874
00:42:46,667 --> 00:42:49,800
because I have cancer,

875
00:42:49,800 --> 00:42:56,033
because I have a tumor
the size of a grapefruit.

876
00:42:56,033 --> 00:43:00,667
No. I am in isolation

877
00:43:00,667 --> 00:43:05,300
because I am being treated
for cancer.

878
00:43:08,266 --> 00:43:12,233
My treatment imperils
my health.

879
00:43:13,934 --> 00:43:16,400
Herein lies the paradox.

880
00:43:18,033 --> 00:43:20,734
John Donne would revel
in it.

881
00:43:22,734 --> 00:43:27,266
I would revel in it
if he wrote a poem about it.

882
00:43:29,633 --> 00:43:34,633
My students
would flounder in it

883
00:43:34,633 --> 00:43:39,166
because paradox is
too difficult to understand.

884
00:43:39,166 --> 00:43:41,100
Huh.

885
00:43:44,400 --> 00:43:48,166
"Think of it as a puzzle,"

886
00:43:48,166 --> 00:43:51,934
I would tell them,
"an intellectual game."

887
00:43:57,200 --> 00:43:59,467
Or I would have told them...

888
00:44:01,867 --> 00:44:03,633
were it a game...

889
00:44:07,000 --> 00:44:09,133
which it is not.

890
00:44:22,533 --> 00:44:26,233
"...threw death on else
immortal us..."

891
00:44:27,934 --> 00:44:29,467
"If lecherous goats,

892
00:44:29,467 --> 00:44:32,166
"if serpents envious

893
00:44:32,166 --> 00:44:34,333
"Cannot be damned,

894
00:44:34,333 --> 00:44:36,266
"alas, why should I be?

895
00:44:36,266 --> 00:44:40,433
"Why should intent
or reason, born in me,

896
00:44:40,433 --> 00:44:42,300
"Make sins, else equal,

897
00:44:42,300 --> 00:44:44,967
"in me more heinous?

898
00:44:44,967 --> 00:44:47,100
"And mercy being easy,
and glorious

899
00:44:47,100 --> 00:44:49,667
"To God, in his stern wrath

900
00:44:49,667 --> 00:44:51,934
"why threatens he?

901
00:44:53,800 --> 00:44:58,567
"But who am I,
that dare dispute with thee?"

902
00:45:00,166 --> 00:45:02,000
"O God,

903
00:45:02,000 --> 00:45:04,967
"Oh! of thine only worthy blood,

904
00:45:04,967 --> 00:45:08,533
"And my tears, make a heavenly
Lethean flood,

905
00:45:08,533 --> 00:45:11,867
"And drown in it
my sins' black memory

906
00:45:11,867 --> 00:45:15,033
"That thou remember them,

907
00:45:15,033 --> 00:45:17,100
"some claim as debt,

908
00:45:17,100 --> 00:45:21,600
"I think it mercy,
if thou wilt forget."

909
00:45:23,433 --> 00:45:27,934
A typical prayer would
plead, "Remember me, O Lord."

910
00:45:27,934 --> 00:45:30,200
True believers ask
to be remembered by God.

911
00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:33,934
The speaker of this sonnet
asks God to forget.

912
00:45:33,934 --> 00:45:38,967
We want to correct
the speaker, hmm?

913
00:45:38,967 --> 00:45:41,467
To remind him
of the assurance of salvation.

914
00:45:41,467 --> 00:45:42,767
But it is too late.

915
00:45:42,767 --> 00:45:44,367
The poetic encounter is over.

916
00:45:44,367 --> 00:45:46,333
We are left
to our own consciences.

917
00:45:46,333 --> 00:45:47,600
Have we outwitted Donne?

918
00:45:47,600 --> 00:45:48,834
[knock on door]

919
00:45:48,834 --> 00:45:50,033
SUSIE:
Ms. Bearing.

920
00:45:50,033 --> 00:45:55,333
Or have we been
outwitted?

921
00:45:55,333 --> 00:45:56,667
Ms. Bearing?

922
00:45:58,300 --> 00:45:59,934
What is it?
[clears throat]

923
00:45:59,934 --> 00:46:01,667
You have to go down
for a test.

924
00:46:01,667 --> 00:46:02,900
Jason just called.

925
00:46:02,900 --> 00:46:04,467
They want to do
another ultrasound.

926
00:46:04,467 --> 00:46:05,934
They're concerned about
a bowel obstruction.

927
00:46:05,934 --> 00:46:08,166
No, not now.

928
00:46:08,166 --> 00:46:09,900
I'm sorry.
They want it now.

929
00:46:09,900 --> 00:46:12,233
Not right now. It's
not supposed to be now.

930
00:46:12,233 --> 00:46:13,800
Yes. They want
to do it now.

931
00:46:13,800 --> 00:46:15,300
I've got the chair.

932
00:46:16,767 --> 00:46:18,800
It should not be now. I...

933
00:46:18,800 --> 00:46:20,266
I am in the middle of this.

934
00:46:20,266 --> 00:46:22,066
I have this planned for
now, not an ultrasound.

935
00:46:22,066 --> 00:46:23,333
No more tests.
We've covered that.

936
00:46:23,333 --> 00:46:24,433
I know. I know.

937
00:46:24,433 --> 00:46:26,934
But they need for it
to be now.

938
00:46:26,934 --> 00:46:28,133
It isn't a bad
procedure,

939
00:46:28,133 --> 00:46:29,266
and it won't
take long.

940
00:46:29,266 --> 00:46:30,700
So why don't you just
come along now?

941
00:46:30,700 --> 00:46:33,400
I do not want to go now.

942
00:46:37,967 --> 00:46:39,100
Ms. Bearing.

943
00:47:10,500 --> 00:47:12,600
Name?

944
00:47:12,600 --> 00:47:15,433
B-e-a-r-i-n-g.

945
00:47:15,433 --> 00:47:16,934
Kelekian.

946
00:47:16,934 --> 00:47:19,567
It'll just be a minute.

947
00:47:21,100 --> 00:47:23,767
Time for your break?
Yup.

948
00:47:24,967 --> 00:47:26,600
Take a break.

949
00:47:41,767 --> 00:47:45,066
"This is my play's
last scene;"

950
00:47:48,000 --> 00:47:50,500
"here Heavens appoint

951
00:47:50,500 --> 00:47:53,667
"My pilgrimage's last mile;"

952
00:47:55,166 --> 00:47:57,667
"And my race,

953
00:47:57,667 --> 00:48:02,633
"Idly, yet quickly run,

954
00:48:02,633 --> 00:48:05,967
"Hath this last pace..."

955
00:48:08,166 --> 00:48:11,600
"My span's last inch,

956
00:48:11,600 --> 00:48:14,700
"My minute's last point;"

957
00:48:15,900 --> 00:48:20,633
"And gluttonous death
will instantly unjoint

958
00:48:20,633 --> 00:48:23,400
My body and soul..."

959
00:48:25,967 --> 00:48:30,400
John Donne, 1609.

960
00:48:33,500 --> 00:48:36,400
I've always particularly
liked that poem...

961
00:48:38,600 --> 00:48:40,734
in the abstract.

962
00:48:43,667 --> 00:48:49,934
Now I find the image of
my minute's last point

963
00:48:49,934 --> 00:48:53,734
a little too,
shall we say, pointed.

964
00:48:56,533 --> 00:49:00,967
I don't mean to complain,
but I am becoming very sick.

965
00:49:00,967 --> 00:49:02,834
Very, very sick.

966
00:49:02,834 --> 00:49:05,266
Ultimately sick, as it were.

967
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:13,700
In everything
I have done, I have been...

968
00:49:14,934 --> 00:49:17,767
steadfast...

969
00:49:17,767 --> 00:49:19,200
resolute.

970
00:49:20,600 --> 00:49:23,367
Some would say in the extreme.

971
00:49:25,734 --> 00:49:27,066
Now, as you can see,

972
00:49:27,066 --> 00:49:32,400
I am distinguishing
myself in illness.

973
00:49:35,300 --> 00:49:38,433
I have survived
eight treatments

974
00:49:38,433 --> 00:49:41,767
of Hexamethophosphacil
and Vinplatin

975
00:49:41,767 --> 00:49:45,900
at the full dose,
ladies and gentlemen.

976
00:49:47,233 --> 00:49:50,567
I have broken the record.

977
00:49:52,200 --> 00:49:55,233
I have become something
of a celebrity.

978
00:49:57,100 --> 00:50:01,467
Kelekian and Jason
are simply delighted.

979
00:50:03,400 --> 00:50:05,800
I think

980
00:50:05,800 --> 00:50:09,800
they see celebrity
status for themselves

981
00:50:09,800 --> 00:50:11,633
upon the appearance
of the journal article

982
00:50:11,633 --> 00:50:13,967
they will no doubt
write about me.

983
00:50:18,333 --> 00:50:20,900
But I flatter myself.

984
00:50:20,900 --> 00:50:24,166
The article will not
be about me.

985
00:50:24,166 --> 00:50:25,967
It will be about my ovaries.

986
00:50:25,967 --> 00:50:32,100
It will be
about my peritoneal cavity,

987
00:50:32,100 --> 00:50:34,333
which, despite
their best intentions,

988
00:50:34,333 --> 00:50:36,600
is now crawling with cancer.

989
00:50:41,233 --> 00:50:45,166
What we have come
to think of as me...

990
00:50:45,166 --> 00:50:50,033
is, in fact,
just the specimen jar.

991
00:50:50,033 --> 00:50:53,033
Just the dust jacket.

992
00:50:53,033 --> 00:50:56,000
Just the white piece of paper

993
00:50:56,000 --> 00:50:58,467
that bears
the little black marks.

994
00:51:05,033 --> 00:51:07,700
My next line is supposed
to be something like this:

995
00:51:07,700 --> 00:51:09,333
um...

996
00:51:09,333 --> 00:51:11,467
"Oh. It is such a relief

997
00:51:11,467 --> 00:51:15,767
to get back to my room
after those infernal tests."

998
00:51:17,133 --> 00:51:19,266
This is hardly true.

999
00:51:20,734 --> 00:51:25,300
It would be a relief
to be a cheerleader

1000
00:51:25,300 --> 00:51:29,100
on her way to Daytona Beach
for spring break.

1001
00:51:31,433 --> 00:51:34,633
To get back to my room
after those infernal tests

1002
00:51:34,633 --> 00:51:36,767
is just the next thing
that happens.

1003
00:51:38,600 --> 00:51:41,767
Ohh. Oh, God.

1004
00:51:43,467 --> 00:51:47,367
It is such a relief to get
back to my Goddamn room

1005
00:51:47,367 --> 00:51:51,300
after those Goddamn tests.

1006
00:51:59,200 --> 00:52:01,166
Professor Bearing?

1007
00:52:01,166 --> 00:52:02,834
I just want to check
your IandO.

1008
00:52:08,200 --> 00:52:10,533
450...

1009
00:52:10,533 --> 00:52:12,467
605.

1010
00:52:12,467 --> 00:52:14,600
OK...

1011
00:52:14,600 --> 00:52:16,633
How you feeling today?

1012
00:52:16,633 --> 00:52:17,667
Fine.

1013
00:52:17,667 --> 00:52:19,433
Great. That's just great.

1014
00:52:20,734 --> 00:52:22,667
How are my fluids?

1015
00:52:22,667 --> 00:52:23,867
Pretty good.

1016
00:52:23,867 --> 00:52:25,300
No kidney involvement yet.

1017
00:52:25,300 --> 00:52:27,266
That's pretty amazing
with Hex and Vin.

1018
00:52:27,266 --> 00:52:28,800
How will you know

1019
00:52:28,800 --> 00:52:30,834
when the kidneys
are involved?

1020
00:52:30,834 --> 00:52:32,333
Lots of in, not much out.

1021
00:52:32,333 --> 00:52:33,667
That simple?

1022
00:52:33,667 --> 00:52:35,667
Well, no way.

1023
00:52:35,667 --> 00:52:37,300
Compromised kidney function

1024
00:52:37,300 --> 00:52:39,333
is a highly complex
reaction.

1025
00:52:39,333 --> 00:52:41,166
I'm simplifying it for you.

1026
00:52:41,166 --> 00:52:42,600
Thank you.

1027
00:52:42,600 --> 00:52:43,967
We're supposed to.

1028
00:52:43,967 --> 00:52:45,200
Bedside manner.

1029
00:52:45,200 --> 00:52:46,867
There's a whole course
on it in med school.

1030
00:52:46,867 --> 00:52:48,467
It's required.

1031
00:52:48,467 --> 00:52:50,700
A colossal waste of time
for researchers.

1032
00:52:50,700 --> 00:52:52,133
I can imagine.

1033
00:52:53,667 --> 00:52:55,333
Jason?
Huh.

1034
00:52:55,333 --> 00:52:56,934
What were you saying
just then?

1035
00:52:56,934 --> 00:52:58,533
When?

1036
00:53:01,033 --> 00:53:02,300
Never mind.

1037
00:53:02,300 --> 00:53:03,734
[clears throat]

1038
00:53:03,734 --> 00:53:06,367
Professor Bearing, are
you experiencing confusion?

1039
00:53:06,367 --> 00:53:08,100
Short-term memory loss?

1040
00:53:08,100 --> 00:53:09,700
No.
You sure?

1041
00:53:09,700 --> 00:53:10,800
Yes.

1042
00:53:10,800 --> 00:53:13,266
OK.

1043
00:53:13,266 --> 00:53:16,734
No, I was just
wondering...

1044
00:53:18,133 --> 00:53:19,233
Why cancer?

1045
00:53:19,233 --> 00:53:21,767
"Why cancer"?

1046
00:53:21,767 --> 00:53:24,200
Well, why not
open-heart surgery?

1047
00:53:24,200 --> 00:53:27,133
Oh. Well, yeah.

1048
00:53:27,133 --> 00:53:29,834
Well, why not
plumbing?

1049
00:53:29,834 --> 00:53:31,233
Why not run a lube rack

1050
00:53:31,233 --> 00:53:32,300
for all the surgeons
know about

1051
00:53:32,300 --> 00:53:34,667
Homo sapiens sapiens
and...

1052
00:53:34,667 --> 00:53:35,967
No way.

1053
00:53:35,967 --> 00:53:38,266
Cancer's the only thing
I ever wanted.

1054
00:53:38,266 --> 00:53:40,667
Huh.
No, really...

1055
00:53:40,667 --> 00:53:42,467
cancer is...

1056
00:53:44,300 --> 00:53:45,266
uh...

1057
00:53:45,266 --> 00:53:46,433
Awesome?
Yeah.

1058
00:53:46,433 --> 00:53:48,333
It is awesome.

1059
00:53:48,333 --> 00:53:50,567
How does it do it?

1060
00:53:50,567 --> 00:53:52,467
The intercellular
regulatory mechanisms,

1061
00:53:52,467 --> 00:53:54,200
especially
for proliferation

1062
00:53:54,200 --> 00:53:55,367
and differentiation.

1063
00:53:55,367 --> 00:53:58,200
The malignant neoplasia
just don't get it.

1064
00:53:58,200 --> 00:54:00,033
Neoplasia, cancer cells.

1065
00:54:00,033 --> 00:54:01,333
Yes, that's right.

1066
00:54:01,333 --> 00:54:03,700
You grow normal cells
in a tissue culture

1067
00:54:03,700 --> 00:54:04,934
in a lab,

1068
00:54:04,934 --> 00:54:06,166
and they replicate
just enough to form

1069
00:54:06,166 --> 00:54:07,834
a nice confluent
monolayer

1070
00:54:07,834 --> 00:54:09,667
and then they divide
20 times or 50 times,

1071
00:54:09,667 --> 00:54:11,266
but eventually
they conk out.

1072
00:54:11,266 --> 00:54:15,200
You grow cancer cells,
and they never stop.

1073
00:54:15,200 --> 00:54:17,734
No contact
inhibition whatsoever.

1074
00:54:17,734 --> 00:54:19,667
They just pile up.

1075
00:54:19,667 --> 00:54:21,967
They keep replicating
forever.

1076
00:54:21,967 --> 00:54:23,433
It's got a great name.

1077
00:54:23,433 --> 00:54:24,567
You know
what it's called?

1078
00:54:24,567 --> 00:54:25,567
No. What?

1079
00:54:25,567 --> 00:54:27,700
Immortality in culture.

1080
00:54:27,700 --> 00:54:30,467
Oh. That sounds
like a symposium.

1081
00:54:30,467 --> 00:54:32,066
Well, it's an error
in judgment

1082
00:54:32,066 --> 00:54:33,800
in a molecular way.

1083
00:54:33,800 --> 00:54:35,300
But why?

1084
00:54:35,300 --> 00:54:36,934
Even on a protistic
level,

1085
00:54:36,934 --> 00:54:39,700
the normal cell-cell
interactions are

1086
00:54:39,700 --> 00:54:42,433
so subtle, they take
your breath away.

1087
00:54:42,433 --> 00:54:45,467
It's incredible.
It's perfect.

1088
00:54:45,467 --> 00:54:47,166
So what's up
with cancer cells?

1089
00:54:47,166 --> 00:54:48,800
The smartest guys
in the world,

1090
00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:51,133
the best labs,
funding...

1091
00:54:51,133 --> 00:54:53,800
They don't know
what to make of it.

1092
00:54:53,800 --> 00:54:55,967
What about you?
Me?

1093
00:54:55,967 --> 00:54:58,967
Oh. I've got some things
I'm kicking around.

1094
00:54:58,967 --> 00:55:01,233
Wait till I get a lab
of my own,

1095
00:55:01,233 --> 00:55:03,667
if I can survive
this fellowship.

1096
00:55:03,667 --> 00:55:05,834
Oh. The part with
the human beings.

1097
00:55:05,834 --> 00:55:07,233
Everybody has got
to go through it,

1098
00:55:07,233 --> 00:55:08,433
all the best
researchers.

1099
00:55:08,433 --> 00:55:09,700
They want us to be
able to converse

1100
00:55:09,700 --> 00:55:11,433
intelligently with
the clinicians.

1101
00:55:11,433 --> 00:55:14,266
As if researchers
were the impediment.

1102
00:55:14,266 --> 00:55:16,133
Clinicians are such
troglodytes.

1103
00:55:16,133 --> 00:55:18,433
Just cut the crap,
I say.

1104
00:55:18,433 --> 00:55:20,100
Are you going
to be sorry when...

1105
00:55:24,633 --> 00:55:26,333
Do you ever miss people?

1106
00:55:27,934 --> 00:55:30,633
Everybody asks that,
especially girls.

1107
00:55:30,633 --> 00:55:32,266
What do you tell them?

1108
00:55:32,266 --> 00:55:34,266
I tell them, "Yes."

1109
00:55:34,266 --> 00:55:36,066
Are they persuaded?
Some.

1110
00:55:36,066 --> 00:55:38,600
Some. I see.
Hmm.

1111
00:55:40,967 --> 00:55:44,000
And what do you say
when a patient is

1112
00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:46,667
apprehensive, frightened?

1113
00:55:46,667 --> 00:55:48,133
Of who?

1114
00:55:50,834 --> 00:55:52,767
Oh. I just...

1115
00:55:54,667 --> 00:55:55,934
Never mind.

1116
00:55:57,166 --> 00:55:58,333
Professor Bearing,

1117
00:55:58,333 --> 00:56:00,300
who's the President
of the United States?

1118
00:56:00,300 --> 00:56:02,834
I'm fine. Really,
it's all right.

1119
00:56:02,834 --> 00:56:03,934
You sure?

1120
00:56:03,934 --> 00:56:04,934
I could order
a test.

1121
00:56:04,934 --> 00:56:09,333
No. No. I'm fine.

1122
00:56:09,333 --> 00:56:10,767
Just a little tired.

1123
00:56:10,767 --> 00:56:12,967
OK.

1124
00:56:12,967 --> 00:56:14,266
Listen, I got to go.

1125
00:56:14,266 --> 00:56:16,900
Keep pushing the fluids.
Try for 2,000 a day, OK?

1126
00:56:16,900 --> 00:56:18,100
OK.

1127
00:56:20,700 --> 00:56:23,066
To use your word...

1128
00:56:25,133 --> 00:56:26,400
"OK."

1129
00:56:38,800 --> 00:56:41,433
So...

1130
00:56:41,433 --> 00:56:46,967
the young doctor,
like the senior scholar...

1131
00:56:46,967 --> 00:56:50,600
prefers research
to humanity.

1132
00:56:52,200 --> 00:56:53,734
At the same time,

1133
00:56:53,734 --> 00:56:56,166
the senior scholar
in her pathetic state

1134
00:56:56,166 --> 00:56:59,567
as simpering victim,
wishes the young doctor

1135
00:56:59,567 --> 00:57:02,967
would take more interest
in personal contact.

1136
00:57:02,967 --> 00:57:06,100
Ah. Now I suppose
we shall see

1137
00:57:06,100 --> 00:57:07,567
how the senior scholar

1138
00:57:07,567 --> 00:57:11,700
ruthlessly denied
her simpering students

1139
00:57:11,700 --> 00:57:15,934
the touch of human
kindness she now seeks.

1140
00:57:20,133 --> 00:57:21,133
[inhales]

1141
00:57:21,133 --> 00:57:22,333
How, then,

1142
00:57:22,333 --> 00:57:24,233
would you characterize...

1143
00:57:24,233 --> 00:57:25,734
[slaps table]
You!

1144
00:57:27,066 --> 00:57:28,433
How would you characterize

1145
00:57:28,433 --> 00:57:30,033
the animating force
of this sonnet?

1146
00:57:30,033 --> 00:57:31,867
Huh?

1147
00:57:34,266 --> 00:57:36,633
In this sonnet,
what is the...

1148
00:57:36,633 --> 00:57:37,800
[clears throat]

1149
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:39,100
What is the principal
poetic device?

1150
00:57:39,100 --> 00:57:41,900
I'll give you a hint: It has
nothing to do with football.

1151
00:57:41,900 --> 00:57:43,633
What propels this sonnet?

1152
00:57:45,967 --> 00:57:47,433
Um...

1153
00:57:47,433 --> 00:57:49,266
You can come to this
class prepared

1154
00:57:49,266 --> 00:57:51,633
or you can excuse yourself
from this class,

1155
00:57:51,633 --> 00:57:53,767
this department,
and this university.

1156
00:57:53,767 --> 00:57:55,633
Do not think for a moment

1157
00:57:55,633 --> 00:57:57,934
that I will tolerate
anything in between.

1158
00:58:00,066 --> 00:58:01,433
[chuckles softly]

1159
00:58:02,900 --> 00:58:07,500
Did I say,
"You are 19 years old.

1160
00:58:07,500 --> 00:58:10,467
"You are so young.

1161
00:58:10,467 --> 00:58:13,200
You don't know a sonnet
from a steak sandwich"?

1162
00:58:16,266 --> 00:58:19,600
By no means.

1163
00:58:19,600 --> 00:58:21,266
To scan the line
properly,

1164
00:58:21,266 --> 00:58:23,000
we must take advantage

1165
00:58:23,000 --> 00:58:25,400
of the contemporary
flexibility

1166
00:58:25,400 --> 00:58:30,433
in i-o-n endings,
as in "expansion."

1167
00:58:30,433 --> 00:58:33,200
The quatrain stands:

1168
00:58:33,200 --> 00:58:37,767
"Our two souls therefore,
which are one,

1169
00:58:37,767 --> 00:58:40,800
"Though I must go,
endure not yet

1170
00:58:40,800 --> 00:58:45,433
"A breach, but an expansion

1171
00:58:45,433 --> 00:58:50,066
Like gold to airy
thinness beat."

1172
00:58:51,100 --> 00:58:53,800
Bear this in mind
in your reading.

1173
00:58:53,800 --> 00:58:54,967
That's all for today.

1174
00:59:09,867 --> 00:59:10,800
Professor Bearing?

1175
00:59:10,800 --> 00:59:12,000
Can I talk to you
for a minute?

1176
00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:13,800
You may.

1177
00:59:13,800 --> 00:59:16,900
I need to ask for an
extension on my paper.

1178
00:59:16,900 --> 00:59:18,533
I'm really sorry. I know
your policy, but...

1179
00:59:18,533 --> 00:59:21,400
Don't tell me.
Your grandmother died.

1180
00:59:21,400 --> 00:59:23,333
You knew?

1181
00:59:23,333 --> 00:59:24,567
It was a guess.

1182
00:59:24,567 --> 00:59:25,734
I have to go home.

1183
00:59:25,734 --> 00:59:27,200
Do what you will,
but the paper is due

1184
00:59:27,200 --> 00:59:28,767
when it is due.

1185
00:59:43,633 --> 00:59:44,800
I don't know. I...

1186
00:59:44,800 --> 00:59:46,266
[inhales deeply]

1187
00:59:48,133 --> 00:59:50,066
I feel so much...

1188
00:59:53,433 --> 00:59:54,934
What is the word?

1189
00:59:54,934 --> 00:59:58,934
I look back, and I see
these scenes,

1190
00:59:58,934 --> 00:59:59,934
and I...

1191
00:59:59,934 --> 01:00:04,100
♪

1192
01:00:33,333 --> 01:00:34,600
[device beeps]

1193
01:00:38,200 --> 01:00:39,800
[device beeps]

1194
01:00:42,900 --> 01:00:45,000
[device beeps]

1195
01:00:45,000 --> 01:00:46,266
Ms. Bearing, is that
you beeping

1196
01:00:46,266 --> 01:00:47,967
at 4:00 in the morning?

1197
01:00:52,867 --> 01:00:54,333
Did that wake you?

1198
01:00:54,333 --> 01:00:58,700
Sorry. It just gets
occluded sometimes.

1199
01:00:58,700 --> 01:01:00,700
I--I was awake.

1200
01:01:00,700 --> 01:01:02,834
You were?

1201
01:01:02,834 --> 01:01:05,200
What's the trouble,
sweetheart?

1202
01:01:05,200 --> 01:01:07,367
Oh. I don't know.

1203
01:01:07,367 --> 01:01:09,133
Can't sleep?

1204
01:01:10,233 --> 01:01:13,600
No. I just keep
thinking.

1205
01:01:13,600 --> 01:01:14,967
If you do that too much,

1206
01:01:14,967 --> 01:01:16,300
you can get kind of
confused.

1207
01:01:16,300 --> 01:01:17,533
I know.

1208
01:01:18,734 --> 01:01:21,033
I can't seem to
figure things out.

1209
01:01:24,166 --> 01:01:26,500
I'm in a quandary,

1210
01:01:26,500 --> 01:01:28,834
having...

1211
01:01:28,834 --> 01:01:31,100
these doubts.

1212
01:01:31,100 --> 01:01:34,400
Well, what you're doing
is very hard.

1213
01:01:35,600 --> 01:01:37,300
Hard things are
what I like best.

1214
01:01:37,300 --> 01:01:39,967
No, but it's not
the same.

1215
01:01:39,967 --> 01:01:42,433
It's like it's out
of control, isn't it?

1216
01:01:45,867 --> 01:01:47,200
[stammers]

1217
01:01:47,200 --> 01:01:48,600
I'm scared.

1218
01:01:48,600 --> 01:01:49,600
[sobbing]

1219
01:01:49,600 --> 01:01:53,033
Honey, of course
you are.

1220
01:01:53,033 --> 01:01:57,066
I--I--I want...

1221
01:01:59,166 --> 01:02:01,934
I don't feel so sure
of myself anymore.

1222
01:02:01,934 --> 01:02:04,166
And you used to feel
sure, didn't you?

1223
01:02:04,166 --> 01:02:07,700
Yes, yes. And I used
to feel sure!

1224
01:02:07,700 --> 01:02:10,867
Oh, Vivian, it's OK.

1225
01:02:10,867 --> 01:02:12,300
It's all right.

1226
01:02:12,300 --> 01:02:15,100
And it hurts.
I know. I know.

1227
01:02:15,100 --> 01:02:18,433
It's all right.
It's all right.

1228
01:02:19,367 --> 01:02:20,967
Let me just--
Hold on a sec.

1229
01:02:24,300 --> 01:02:27,333
Here you go.
It's OK.

1230
01:02:27,333 --> 01:02:28,600
It's all right.

1231
01:02:30,066 --> 01:02:32,934
Vivian, it's OK.
It's all right.

1232
01:02:33,967 --> 01:02:37,133
Hey, Vivian, you
want a popsicle?

1233
01:02:38,500 --> 01:02:39,967
Yes, please.

1234
01:02:39,967 --> 01:02:41,734
OK. I'm gonna go
get one.

1235
01:02:41,734 --> 01:02:43,600
I'll be right back, OK?

1236
01:02:49,300 --> 01:02:52,033
The epithelial cells

1237
01:02:52,033 --> 01:02:55,166
in my GI tract

1238
01:02:55,166 --> 01:02:58,333
have been killed
by the chemo.

1239
01:02:58,333 --> 01:03:00,800
The cold popsicle
feels good.

1240
01:03:02,033 --> 01:03:03,834
It's something I can digest

1241
01:03:03,834 --> 01:03:06,700
and it helps keep me
hydrated.

1242
01:03:06,700 --> 01:03:08,467
For your information.

1243
01:03:12,266 --> 01:03:14,133
Here you go.
Thank you.

1244
01:03:19,934 --> 01:03:22,266
Here.
You sure?

1245
01:03:22,266 --> 01:03:25,000
Mmm.
Thanks.

1246
01:03:25,000 --> 01:03:26,433
Thank you.

1247
01:03:43,300 --> 01:03:44,700
You know,
when I was a kid,

1248
01:03:44,700 --> 01:03:46,300
we used to get
these from a truck.

1249
01:03:46,300 --> 01:03:47,934
A man would come
around,

1250
01:03:47,934 --> 01:03:49,633
and he'd ring
his bell,

1251
01:03:49,633 --> 01:03:52,133
and we'd all go
running over.

1252
01:03:52,133 --> 01:03:53,967
And then we'd sit
on the curb

1253
01:03:53,967 --> 01:03:56,467
and eat our
popsicles.

1254
01:03:56,467 --> 01:03:57,800
[chuckles]

1255
01:03:57,800 --> 01:04:00,200
That's pretty
profound, huh?

1256
01:04:00,200 --> 01:04:01,800
It sounds nice.

1257
01:04:06,834 --> 01:04:08,333
Vivian, there's
something we need

1258
01:04:08,333 --> 01:04:10,500
to talk about,

1259
01:04:10,500 --> 01:04:12,400
that you need
to think about.

1260
01:04:17,233 --> 01:04:19,433
My cancer's not
being cured, is it?

1261
01:04:21,133 --> 01:04:22,467
Mm-mm.

1262
01:04:26,100 --> 01:04:28,567
They never expected
it to be, did they?

1263
01:04:30,533 --> 01:04:32,133
Well, they thought
the drugs would make

1264
01:04:32,133 --> 01:04:33,967
the tumor
get smaller.

1265
01:04:33,967 --> 01:04:37,667
And it has. It's
gotten a lot smaller.

1266
01:04:37,667 --> 01:04:39,133
But the problem is,

1267
01:04:39,133 --> 01:04:41,967
it's started
in other places, too.

1268
01:04:41,967 --> 01:04:43,433
And, I mean, they've
learned a lot

1269
01:04:43,433 --> 01:04:45,033
for their research, and
it was the best thing

1270
01:04:45,033 --> 01:04:45,967
they had to give you.

1271
01:04:45,967 --> 01:04:47,166
It was the strongest
drugs.

1272
01:04:47,166 --> 01:04:49,300
It's just that there--

1273
01:04:49,300 --> 01:04:50,800
there really
isn't a good cure

1274
01:04:50,800 --> 01:04:53,033
for what you have yet--

1275
01:04:53,033 --> 01:04:55,600
for advanced ovarian.
Huh.

1276
01:04:58,600 --> 01:04:59,700
I'm sorry.

1277
01:04:59,700 --> 01:05:01,767
They should have
explained this to you.

1278
01:05:03,400 --> 01:05:05,000
I knew.

1279
01:05:07,000 --> 01:05:08,133
You did?

1280
01:05:10,500 --> 01:05:13,233
I read between
the lines.

1281
01:05:23,266 --> 01:05:24,800
What you need
to think about is

1282
01:05:24,800 --> 01:05:26,600
your code status--

1283
01:05:26,600 --> 01:05:30,934
what you want them
to do, um,

1284
01:05:30,934 --> 01:05:32,400
if your heart stops
beating.

1285
01:05:34,633 --> 01:05:35,967
Well?

1286
01:05:37,433 --> 01:05:39,734
Well, you can be
full code

1287
01:05:39,734 --> 01:05:41,633
which means that
if your heart stops,

1288
01:05:41,633 --> 01:05:43,166
we'll call
a code blue

1289
01:05:43,166 --> 01:05:44,800
and the code team
will come in

1290
01:05:44,800 --> 01:05:47,033
and resuscitate
you and take you

1291
01:05:47,033 --> 01:05:49,834
to intensive care
until you stabilize.

1292
01:05:49,834 --> 01:05:55,633
Or you can be
do not resuscitate,

1293
01:05:55,633 --> 01:05:58,300
which means that
if your heart stops,

1294
01:05:58,300 --> 01:06:01,834
uh, we'll just let it.

1295
01:06:03,000 --> 01:06:05,400
You'll be DNR.

1296
01:06:06,633 --> 01:06:08,333
Now, you can think
about it.

1297
01:06:08,333 --> 01:06:10,133
But I just...

1298
01:06:10,133 --> 01:06:13,367
I just wanted to present
you with both choices

1299
01:06:13,367 --> 01:06:16,133
before Kelekian
and Jason

1300
01:06:16,133 --> 01:06:17,567
come in and talk to you.

1301
01:06:20,734 --> 01:06:23,033
And you don't agree
about this?

1302
01:06:23,033 --> 01:06:25,266
They like
to save lives.

1303
01:06:25,266 --> 01:06:29,133
So anything's OK as long
as the life continues.

1304
01:06:29,133 --> 01:06:30,967
Doesn't matter
if you're hooked up

1305
01:06:30,967 --> 01:06:32,900
to a million machines.

1306
01:06:34,400 --> 01:06:37,000
Kelekian's a great
researcher. He is.

1307
01:06:37,000 --> 01:06:38,467
And the fellows
like Jason,

1308
01:06:38,467 --> 01:06:40,433
they're really smart.

1309
01:06:40,433 --> 01:06:41,834
And it's an honor
for them

1310
01:06:41,834 --> 01:06:43,567
to be working with him.

1311
01:06:45,300 --> 01:06:49,533
But they always want
to know more things.

1312
01:06:50,567 --> 01:06:52,934
I always want
to know more things.

1313
01:06:55,166 --> 01:06:56,767
I'm a scholar.

1314
01:06:59,000 --> 01:07:01,500
Or I was

1315
01:07:01,500 --> 01:07:03,767
when I had shoes...

1316
01:07:05,367 --> 01:07:07,433
when I had eyebrows.

1317
01:07:09,300 --> 01:07:11,800
OK, well, that's fine.
I mean,

1318
01:07:11,800 --> 01:07:13,200
you'll be full code.

1319
01:07:17,600 --> 01:07:19,734
No.

1320
01:07:19,734 --> 01:07:21,400
Don't complicate
the matter.

1321
01:07:21,400 --> 01:07:23,734
No, really, it's fine.
It's up to you.

1322
01:07:27,133 --> 01:07:28,900
Just let it stop.

1323
01:07:30,233 --> 01:07:32,233
Really?

1324
01:07:32,233 --> 01:07:33,834
Yes.

1325
01:07:35,433 --> 01:07:37,567
So if your heart
stops beating...

1326
01:07:40,467 --> 01:07:42,400
Just let it stop.

1327
01:07:46,633 --> 01:07:47,967
You sure?

1328
01:07:51,533 --> 01:07:53,367
Yes.

1329
01:07:55,166 --> 01:07:57,633
OK. OK.

1330
01:07:57,633 --> 01:07:59,367
I'll get Kelekian
to give the order

1331
01:07:59,367 --> 01:08:01,133
and then...

1332
01:08:01,133 --> 01:08:03,333
Susie?
Yeah.

1333
01:08:06,800 --> 01:08:09,233
You're still going to take
care of me, aren't you?

1334
01:08:10,633 --> 01:08:12,734
Of course I am.

1335
01:08:12,734 --> 01:08:14,533
Don't you worry,
sweetheart.

1336
01:08:18,734 --> 01:08:22,867
♪

1337
01:08:32,133 --> 01:08:33,467
OK.

1338
01:08:42,133 --> 01:08:43,867
Thank you.

1339
01:09:13,066 --> 01:09:15,867
Well, that certainly
was a maudlin display.

1340
01:09:17,400 --> 01:09:20,900
Popsicles, "Sweetheart."

1341
01:09:20,900 --> 01:09:24,367
I can't believe my life
has become so corny.

1342
01:09:27,066 --> 01:09:30,400
But it can't be helped.
I don't see any other way.

1343
01:09:30,400 --> 01:09:33,467
We are discussing
life and death,

1344
01:09:33,467 --> 01:09:37,233
and not
in the abstract either.

1345
01:09:37,233 --> 01:09:40,567
We are discussing my life
and my death.

1346
01:09:41,934 --> 01:09:44,900
And I can't conceive
of any other tone.

1347
01:09:47,934 --> 01:09:51,633
Now is not the time
for verbal swordplay.

1348
01:09:51,633 --> 01:09:53,266
Nothing would be worse

1349
01:09:53,266 --> 01:09:57,433
than a detailed
scholarly analysis.

1350
01:09:57,433 --> 01:10:00,967
Erudition, interpretation,
complication.

1351
01:10:02,133 --> 01:10:04,500
No.

1352
01:10:04,500 --> 01:10:06,934
Now is the time for simplicity.

1353
01:10:08,500 --> 01:10:10,834
Now is the time for--

1354
01:10:12,166 --> 01:10:15,000
dare I say it--

1355
01:10:15,000 --> 01:10:16,767
kindness.

1356
01:10:22,066 --> 01:10:25,333
And I thought being
extremely smart

1357
01:10:25,333 --> 01:10:27,433
would take care of it.

1358
01:10:29,066 --> 01:10:31,800
But I see that
I have been found out.

1359
01:10:34,166 --> 01:10:35,767
Ooh.

1360
01:10:44,367 --> 01:10:45,967
I'm scared.

1361
01:10:47,266 --> 01:10:48,533
[inhales sharply]

1362
01:10:48,533 --> 01:10:50,800
Oh! Oh, God.

1363
01:10:53,567 --> 01:10:56,533
I--I want...

1364
01:10:56,533 --> 01:10:57,967
I want...

1365
01:11:01,367 --> 01:11:03,333
No.

1366
01:11:03,333 --> 01:11:07,500
No. I want to hide.
I just want to--

1367
01:11:07,500 --> 01:11:09,767
I just want to curl up
in a little ball.

1368
01:11:09,767 --> 01:11:13,867
♪

1369
01:11:32,667 --> 01:11:35,266
[strained breathing]

1370
01:11:39,834 --> 01:11:41,266
I...

1371
01:11:43,667 --> 01:11:47,700
I want to tell you...

1372
01:11:47,700 --> 01:11:50,133
how it feels.

1373
01:11:51,533 --> 01:11:54,800
I want to explain it.

1374
01:11:56,533 --> 01:11:59,300
To use my--my words...

1375
01:12:01,333 --> 01:12:05,633
, it's as if--
like I can't.

1376
01:12:09,033 --> 01:12:11,133
There aren't...

1377
01:12:18,333 --> 01:12:20,767
I'm in t-terrible pain.

1378
01:12:23,000 --> 01:12:24,600
Susie says...

1379
01:12:25,900 --> 01:12:28,000
[moaning]

1380
01:12:30,967 --> 01:12:36,500
I need to be--be
in aggressive pain management

1381
01:12:36,500 --> 01:12:40,266
if I'm going to stand it.

1382
01:12:42,667 --> 01:12:46,767
"lt." Such a little word.

1383
01:12:49,500 --> 01:12:54,700
I--I think in this c-case...

1384
01:12:54,700 --> 01:13:01,467
"it" signifies being alive.

1385
01:13:03,834 --> 01:13:06,200
[Vivian groaning]

1386
01:13:06,200 --> 01:13:10,000
OK. OK. OK...

1387
01:13:10,000 --> 01:13:11,433
We've located
Dr. Kelekian,

1388
01:13:11,433 --> 01:13:12,767
and he's on his
way here.

1389
01:13:12,767 --> 01:13:14,200
And we'll get
you some meds.

1390
01:13:14,200 --> 01:13:16,600
Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh,
it's just so painful.

1391
01:13:16,600 --> 01:13:18,133
Shh.
So painful.

1392
01:13:18,133 --> 01:13:19,467
So much pain.

1393
01:13:19,467 --> 01:13:20,533
Shh. I know.

1394
01:13:20,533 --> 01:13:22,467
Just try and relax
and clear your mind.

1395
01:13:22,467 --> 01:13:23,433
We'll get you

1396
01:13:23,433 --> 01:13:25,200
patient-controlled
analgesic.

1397
01:13:25,200 --> 01:13:26,700
It's a little pump
with a little button,

1398
01:13:26,700 --> 01:13:28,100
and you press it,

1399
01:13:28,100 --> 01:13:30,133
and you decide how much
medication you want.

1400
01:13:30,133 --> 01:13:33,633
It's very simple,
and it's all up to you.

1401
01:13:33,633 --> 01:13:34,834
OK.

1402
01:13:34,834 --> 01:13:36,500
[Vivian moaning]

1403
01:13:36,500 --> 01:13:37,967
Dr. Bearing.

1404
01:13:37,967 --> 01:13:39,367
Susie.
It's time...

1405
01:13:39,367 --> 01:13:40,333
for patient-controlled
analgesic.

1406
01:13:40,333 --> 01:13:41,967
The pain is killing her.

1407
01:13:41,967 --> 01:13:43,567
Dr. Bearing...

1408
01:13:43,567 --> 01:13:45,166
are you in pain?

1409
01:13:45,166 --> 01:13:47,834
I don't believe this.

1410
01:13:47,834 --> 01:13:49,900
I want a morphine drip.

1411
01:13:49,900 --> 01:13:51,000
What about
patient-controlled?

1412
01:13:51,000 --> 01:13:52,133
She could be more alert.

1413
01:13:52,133 --> 01:13:54,266
Ordinarily, yes.
But in her case, no.

1414
01:13:54,266 --> 01:13:56,000
B-but I think she
would really rather...

1415
01:13:56,000 --> 01:13:57,934
She's earned a rest.

1416
01:13:59,367 --> 01:14:00,834
Morphine. Ten push now

1417
01:14:00,834 --> 01:14:02,233
and start at 10 an hour.

1418
01:14:02,233 --> 01:14:03,834
Dr. Bearing, try to relax.

1419
01:14:03,834 --> 01:14:05,433
We're gonna help you
through this.

1420
01:14:05,433 --> 01:14:07,033
Don't worry.

1421
01:14:07,033 --> 01:14:08,633
Dr. Bearing...

1422
01:14:08,633 --> 01:14:10,533
Uh! Uh-huh.

1423
01:14:10,533 --> 01:14:11,734
Excellent.

1424
01:14:13,200 --> 01:14:15,133
KELEKIAN: Susie.

1425
01:14:15,133 --> 01:14:16,967
[Vivian groaning]

1426
01:14:16,967 --> 01:14:18,233
Will you?

1427
01:15:01,567 --> 01:15:04,000
Hi.

1428
01:15:04,000 --> 01:15:06,033
How are you feeling today?

1429
01:15:08,333 --> 01:15:12,233
These are my last
coherent lines.

1430
01:15:13,300 --> 01:15:15,767
I'll have to...

1431
01:15:15,767 --> 01:15:20,734
leave the action
to the professionals.

1432
01:15:23,100 --> 01:15:27,834
It came so quickly
after taking so long.

1433
01:15:29,600 --> 01:15:35,233
There's not even time
for a proper conclusion.

1434
01:15:43,367 --> 01:15:47,133
I trust this will have
a soporific effect?

1435
01:15:47,133 --> 01:15:49,133
Um, I don't know
about that,

1436
01:15:49,133 --> 01:15:51,000
but it sure does
make you sleepy.

1437
01:15:51,000 --> 01:15:52,066
[device beeps]

1438
01:15:52,066 --> 01:15:53,934
[chuckling]

1439
01:15:57,667 --> 01:15:59,266
What's so funny?

1440
01:16:02,000 --> 01:16:03,700
What?

1441
01:16:03,700 --> 01:16:05,633
What?

1442
01:16:08,333 --> 01:16:11,567
It's just...

1443
01:16:11,567 --> 01:16:14,967
It's just--
soporific means...

1444
01:16:14,967 --> 01:16:17,233
"makes you sleepy."

1445
01:16:18,567 --> 01:16:21,667
It does? Ha ha!

1446
01:16:22,834 --> 01:16:25,100
Well, that was sort
of dumb. Ha ha!

1447
01:16:25,100 --> 01:16:27,967
No, no, it was--
it was funny.

1448
01:16:27,967 --> 01:16:29,934
[laughing]

1449
01:16:29,934 --> 01:16:32,433
Yeah?
In a dumb sort of way.

1450
01:16:32,433 --> 01:16:34,233
[both laughing]

1451
01:16:41,100 --> 01:16:46,133
Well, I'm glad you
explained it to me. Ha ha!

1452
01:16:46,133 --> 01:16:48,333
I never would've
gotten that.

1453
01:16:48,333 --> 01:16:49,934
[laughter]

1454
01:16:51,367 --> 01:16:54,567
I'm a teacher.
Ha ha!

1455
01:16:54,567 --> 01:16:58,700
♪

1456
01:17:03,166 --> 01:17:04,867
[laughing stops]

1457
01:17:04,867 --> 01:17:06,934
[breathing deeply]

1458
01:17:40,934 --> 01:17:42,934
Yeah, she was
a great scholar.

1459
01:17:42,934 --> 01:17:46,266
Wrote tons of books,
articles.

1460
01:17:46,266 --> 01:17:48,000
She was the head
of everything.

1461
01:17:48,000 --> 01:17:51,266
People used to hug
the walls when she passed.

1462
01:17:56,834 --> 01:18:00,033
275, 520.

1463
01:18:00,033 --> 01:18:01,233
Let's up the hydration.

1464
01:18:01,233 --> 01:18:02,467
She won't be
drinking anymore.

1465
01:18:02,467 --> 01:18:04,633
See if we can keep her
kidneys from fading.

1466
01:18:04,633 --> 01:18:06,133
Yeah. I had a lot
of respect for her,

1467
01:18:06,133 --> 01:18:07,600
which is more
than I can say

1468
01:18:07,600 --> 01:18:09,633
for the entire
biochemistry department.

1469
01:18:09,633 --> 01:18:11,000
What do you want,
dextrose?

1470
01:18:11,000 --> 01:18:12,367
Give her saline.

1471
01:18:13,734 --> 01:18:14,900
She gave a hell
of a lecture.

1472
01:18:14,900 --> 01:18:17,400
No notes, not a word
out of place.

1473
01:18:17,400 --> 01:18:18,967
It was pretty
impressive.

1474
01:18:18,967 --> 01:18:20,166
A lot of students
hated her, though.

1475
01:18:20,166 --> 01:18:21,300
Why?

1476
01:18:21,300 --> 01:18:22,734
Well, she wasn't
exactly a cupcake.

1477
01:18:22,734 --> 01:18:25,600
She hasn't exactly been
a cupcake here either.

1478
01:18:25,600 --> 01:18:28,033
Now, Ms. Bearing,
Jason and I are here.

1479
01:18:28,033 --> 01:18:28,934
We're gonna insert
a catheter

1480
01:18:28,934 --> 01:18:30,133
to collect your urine.

1481
01:18:30,133 --> 01:18:31,734
It's not gonna hurt,
so don't you worry.

1482
01:18:31,734 --> 01:18:33,300
Like she can hear you.

1483
01:18:33,300 --> 01:18:34,934
It's just nice to do.

1484
01:18:34,934 --> 01:18:36,834
Eight cycles of Hex and
Vin at the full dose.

1485
01:18:36,834 --> 01:18:38,934
Kelekian didn't think
it was possible.

1486
01:18:38,934 --> 01:18:39,967
I wish they could all
get through it

1487
01:18:39,967 --> 01:18:41,100
at full throttle.

1488
01:18:41,100 --> 01:18:42,300
Then we could really
have some data.

1489
01:18:42,300 --> 01:18:43,934
She's not what
I imagined, you know.

1490
01:18:43,934 --> 01:18:45,367
I thought someone
who studied poetry

1491
01:18:45,367 --> 01:18:46,800
would be more dreamy.

1492
01:18:46,800 --> 01:18:48,100
Not the way she did it.

1493
01:18:48,100 --> 01:18:49,467
Her course was more like
boot camp

1494
01:18:49,467 --> 01:18:50,934
than English class.

1495
01:18:50,934 --> 01:18:52,800
This guy, John Donne,
was incredibly intense.

1496
01:18:52,800 --> 01:18:54,633
Like, your whole brain
had to be in knots

1497
01:18:54,633 --> 01:18:56,066
before you could get it.

1498
01:18:56,066 --> 01:18:57,100
What, he made it
hard on purpose?

1499
01:18:57,100 --> 01:18:59,033
Well, it has to do
with the subject matter.

1500
01:18:59,033 --> 01:19:00,166
The Holy Sonnets we
worked on mostly

1501
01:19:00,166 --> 01:19:02,633
were mainly
about salvation anxiety.

1502
01:19:02,633 --> 01:19:04,166
That's a term I made up
in one of my papers--

1503
01:19:04,166 --> 01:19:05,300
"salvation anxiety."

1504
01:19:05,300 --> 01:19:06,467
but I think it
fits pretty well.

1505
01:19:06,467 --> 01:19:08,767
He's this brilliant guy.
I mean brilliant.

1506
01:19:08,767 --> 01:19:10,100
This guy makes
Shakespeare sound

1507
01:19:10,100 --> 01:19:11,400
like a Hallmark card.

1508
01:19:11,400 --> 01:19:13,233
And you know you're
a sinner.

1509
01:19:13,233 --> 01:19:15,066
And there's this whole
promise of salvation,

1510
01:19:15,066 --> 01:19:16,266
the whole religious
thing.

1511
01:19:16,266 --> 01:19:17,467
But you just can't
deal with it.

1512
01:19:17,467 --> 01:19:18,734
Well, how come?

1513
01:19:18,734 --> 01:19:20,266
Because it doesn't stand
up to scrutiny.

1514
01:19:20,266 --> 01:19:22,233
But you can't face life
without it either.

1515
01:19:22,233 --> 01:19:23,567
So you write these
screwed-up sonnets,

1516
01:19:23,567 --> 01:19:26,767
Like a game to make the
puzzle so complicated.

1517
01:19:26,767 --> 01:19:28,433
What happens in the end?

1518
01:19:28,433 --> 01:19:29,633
The end of what?

1519
01:19:29,633 --> 01:19:31,433
To John Donne.
Does he ever get it?

1520
01:19:31,433 --> 01:19:32,734
Get what?

1521
01:19:32,734 --> 01:19:34,400
His salvation anxiety.
Does he ever understand?

1522
01:19:34,400 --> 01:19:36,133
Oh. No way.

1523
01:19:36,133 --> 01:19:38,100
The puzzle takes over.

1524
01:19:38,100 --> 01:19:40,133
You're not even trying
to solve it anymore.

1525
01:19:40,133 --> 01:19:41,767
Fascinating, really.

1526
01:19:41,767 --> 01:19:43,467
Like, great training
for lab research--

1527
01:19:43,467 --> 01:19:44,600
looking at things

1528
01:19:44,600 --> 01:19:46,100
in increasing
levels of complexity.

1529
01:19:46,100 --> 01:19:47,367
Until what?

1530
01:19:47,367 --> 01:19:48,333
What do you mean?

1531
01:19:48,333 --> 01:19:49,367
Well, what happens
in the end?

1532
01:19:49,367 --> 01:19:50,533
Do you ever get
to solve the puzzle?

1533
01:19:50,533 --> 01:19:52,400
Nah. When it comes
down to it,

1534
01:19:52,400 --> 01:19:54,200
research is just trying
to quantify

1535
01:19:54,200 --> 01:19:56,066
the complications
of the puzzle.

1536
01:19:56,066 --> 01:19:58,500
You help people. I mean,
you save lives and stuff.

1537
01:19:58,500 --> 01:20:00,233
Well, sure, I save
a guy's life.

1538
01:20:00,233 --> 01:20:01,533
And the poor slob

1539
01:20:01,533 --> 01:20:02,967
goes out
and gets hit by a bus.

1540
01:20:02,967 --> 01:20:04,433
Yeah, I guess so.

1541
01:20:04,433 --> 01:20:06,967
Guess I just don't
think about it that way.

1542
01:20:06,967 --> 01:20:09,967
I guess you can tell I never
took a course in poetry.

1543
01:20:09,967 --> 01:20:11,800
Well, if there's one
thing we learned

1544
01:20:11,800 --> 01:20:13,500
in 17th-century
poetry, you can

1545
01:20:13,500 --> 01:20:14,667
forget all
about that--

1546
01:20:14,667 --> 01:20:16,300
all that
sentimental stuff.

1547
01:20:16,300 --> 01:20:17,800
Enzyme kinetics
was more poetic

1548
01:20:17,800 --> 01:20:19,133
than Bearing's
class.

1549
01:20:19,133 --> 01:20:21,300
Besides, you can't
just go around

1550
01:20:21,300 --> 01:20:22,533
thinking about all
that meaning-of-life

1551
01:20:22,533 --> 01:20:23,834
garbage
all the time.

1552
01:20:23,834 --> 01:20:25,467
You'd just go nuts.

1553
01:20:25,467 --> 01:20:26,667
Well, do you
believe in it?

1554
01:20:26,667 --> 01:20:28,467
Believe in what?

1555
01:20:28,467 --> 01:20:31,100
I don't know.
The meaning-of-life garbage.

1556
01:20:32,333 --> 01:20:34,433
What do they teach you
at nursing school?

1557
01:20:40,667 --> 01:20:42,166
JASON:
She's out of it.

1558
01:20:42,166 --> 01:20:43,333
Shouldn't be
too long.

1559
01:20:47,200 --> 01:20:48,667
You done here?

1560
01:20:48,667 --> 01:20:50,967
Yeah,
I'll just tidy up.

1561
01:20:55,867 --> 01:20:58,367
[thud]

1562
01:20:58,367 --> 01:20:59,333
See you.

1563
01:20:59,333 --> 01:21:00,967
[chuckling]
Bye, Jase.

1564
01:21:19,533 --> 01:21:23,700
♪

1565
01:22:36,500 --> 01:22:38,266
MAN: This is so excellent...

1566
01:22:56,200 --> 01:22:57,800
Vivian...

1567
01:23:01,200 --> 01:23:02,734
Vivian...

1568
01:23:04,533 --> 01:23:06,467
It's Evelyn.

1569
01:23:08,200 --> 01:23:09,967
Vivian...

1570
01:23:16,133 --> 01:23:18,567
Oh, God.

1571
01:23:23,100 --> 01:23:26,166
Professor Ashford?

1572
01:23:26,166 --> 01:23:29,633
Oh, God. Oh...

1573
01:23:29,633 --> 01:23:34,133
I'm in town visiting
my great-grandson,

1574
01:23:34,133 --> 01:23:37,500
who is celebrating
his fifth birthday.

1575
01:23:38,800 --> 01:23:41,967
I went to see you
in your office,

1576
01:23:41,967 --> 01:23:44,266
and they directed
me here.

1577
01:23:47,000 --> 01:23:48,133
[sighs]

1578
01:23:48,133 --> 01:23:51,467
I've been walking
all over town.

1579
01:23:51,467 --> 01:23:54,600
I'd forgotten how early
it gets chilly here.

1580
01:23:58,100 --> 01:24:01,700
I feel so bad.

1581
01:24:01,700 --> 01:24:05,033
[strained breathing]

1582
01:24:05,033 --> 01:24:07,533
Yes, I know you do.

1583
01:24:07,533 --> 01:24:09,100
I can see.

1584
01:24:09,100 --> 01:24:12,133
Ohh...

1585
01:24:12,133 --> 01:24:15,467
Oh, dear.

1586
01:24:15,467 --> 01:24:18,100
Oh. There, there.

1587
01:24:18,100 --> 01:24:20,333
There, there.

1588
01:24:20,333 --> 01:24:22,066
[moaning]

1589
01:24:26,300 --> 01:24:29,533
Oh, Vivian.

1590
01:24:29,533 --> 01:24:31,734
Vivian...

1591
01:25:05,166 --> 01:25:07,934
There, there.

1592
01:25:07,934 --> 01:25:10,333
There, there, Vivian.

1593
01:25:15,467 --> 01:25:17,567
It's a windy day.

1594
01:25:21,633 --> 01:25:23,734
Don't worry, dear.

1595
01:25:26,967 --> 01:25:28,600
Let's see.

1596
01:25:28,600 --> 01:25:30,967
Shall I recite
something to you?

1597
01:25:30,967 --> 01:25:32,433
Would you like that?

1598
01:25:32,433 --> 01:25:35,767
I'll recite
something by Donne.

1599
01:25:35,767 --> 01:25:40,233
No.
Mm-hmm.

1600
01:25:40,233 --> 01:25:42,133
Very well.

1601
01:25:53,166 --> 01:25:54,934
Let's see.

1602
01:26:01,467 --> 01:26:06,633
"The Runaway Bunny"
by Margaret Wise Brown.

1603
01:26:06,633 --> 01:26:09,133
"Pictures by
Clement Hurd.

1604
01:26:09,133 --> 01:26:12,767
"Copyright 1942.

1605
01:26:12,767 --> 01:26:17,867
First HarperTrophy
edition, 1972."

1606
01:26:22,667 --> 01:26:24,133
"Once there was
a little bunny

1607
01:26:24,133 --> 01:26:26,667
"who wanted to run away,

1608
01:26:26,667 --> 01:26:27,734
"so he said
to his mother,

1609
01:26:27,734 --> 01:26:29,300
"'I'm running away.'

1610
01:26:29,300 --> 01:26:33,200
"'lf you run away,'
said his mother...

1611
01:26:33,200 --> 01:26:35,333
"'I will run after you.

1612
01:26:35,333 --> 01:26:37,967
For you are
my little bunny.'"

1613
01:26:40,066 --> 01:26:41,700
"'lf you run after me,'

1614
01:26:41,700 --> 01:26:43,600
"said
the little bunny...

1615
01:26:43,600 --> 01:26:46,633
"'I will become a fish
in a trout stream

1616
01:26:46,633 --> 01:26:49,633
"'and I will
swim away from you.'

1617
01:26:49,633 --> 01:26:52,166
"'lf you become a fish
in a trout stream,'

1618
01:26:52,166 --> 01:26:53,800
"said his mother,

1619
01:26:53,800 --> 01:26:55,800
"'I will become
a fisherman,

1620
01:26:55,800 --> 01:26:57,967
and I will fish
for you.'"

1621
01:26:57,967 --> 01:27:00,133
Oh. Look at that.

1622
01:27:00,133 --> 01:27:03,467
A little allegory
of the soul.

1623
01:27:03,467 --> 01:27:08,467
Wherever it hides
God will find it.

1624
01:27:08,467 --> 01:27:10,600
See, Vivian?

1625
01:27:14,266 --> 01:27:15,867
"'lf you become
a fisherman,'

1626
01:27:15,867 --> 01:27:17,433
"said the little
bunny...

1627
01:27:17,433 --> 01:27:21,633
"'I will be a bird
and fly away from you.'

1628
01:27:21,633 --> 01:27:23,066
"'lf you become a bird

1629
01:27:23,066 --> 01:27:24,467
"and fly away from me,'

1630
01:27:24,467 --> 01:27:25,900
"said his mother,

1631
01:27:25,900 --> 01:27:29,400
"'I will be a tree
that you come home to.'"

1632
01:27:30,967 --> 01:27:33,567
Ohh. Very clever.

1633
01:27:38,266 --> 01:27:41,467
"'Shucks,' said
the little bunny.

1634
01:27:41,467 --> 01:27:44,433
"'I might just as
well stay where I am

1635
01:27:44,433 --> 01:27:48,133
"and be your
little bunny.'

1636
01:27:48,133 --> 01:27:49,934
And so he did."

1637
01:27:51,600 --> 01:27:54,433
"'Have a carrot,'
said the mother bunny."

1638
01:27:58,867 --> 01:28:00,500
Wonderful.

1639
01:28:07,500 --> 01:28:09,133
Time to go.

1640
01:28:42,100 --> 01:28:46,567
"And flights of angels
sing thee to thy rest."

1641
01:29:49,467 --> 01:29:51,834
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

1642
01:29:58,934 --> 01:30:00,900
Professor Bearing,
how you feeling today?

1643
01:30:02,967 --> 01:30:04,100
It's 3 PM.

1644
01:30:04,100 --> 01:30:09,333
IV hydration totals--
2,0000 in, 30 out.

1645
01:30:09,333 --> 01:30:11,033
Oh. Well, that's it.

1646
01:30:11,033 --> 01:30:13,033
Kidneys gone.

1647
01:30:13,033 --> 01:30:16,000
Professor Bearing?

1648
01:30:16,000 --> 01:30:18,100
"Highly unresponsive."

1649
01:30:26,834 --> 01:30:28,133
Wait a sec.

1650
01:30:32,533 --> 01:30:35,333
Jeez, 4-5-6.

1651
01:30:35,333 --> 01:30:37,333
4-5-6.

1652
01:30:37,333 --> 01:30:38,800
Code blue, room 707.

1653
01:30:38,800 --> 01:30:39,934
Code blue,
room 707.

1654
01:30:39,934 --> 01:30:42,367
Dr. Posner, P-o-s-n-e-r.
Hurry up.

1655
01:30:46,433 --> 01:30:49,133
[alarm]

1656
01:31:10,000 --> 01:31:14,300
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6,
7, 8, 9, 10,

1657
01:31:14,300 --> 01:31:16,800
11, 12, 13, 14, 15.

1658
01:31:16,800 --> 01:31:18,500
What are you doing?

1659
01:31:18,500 --> 01:31:19,700
The Goddamn code.
Get over here.

1660
01:31:19,700 --> 01:31:21,000
She's DNR!
She's research.

1661
01:31:21,000 --> 01:31:22,066
She's no code!

1662
01:31:22,066 --> 01:31:24,500
Jason!
She's no code!

1663
01:31:24,500 --> 01:31:26,100
Kelekian put the order in.
And you were right there.

1664
01:31:26,100 --> 01:31:27,667
You saw it yourself!

1665
01:31:27,667 --> 01:31:30,200
God. the code.

1666
01:31:30,200 --> 01:31:32,667
4-5-7-5. Cancel
code, room 707.

1667
01:31:32,667 --> 01:31:34,300
Sue Monahan,
primary nurse.

1668
01:31:34,300 --> 01:31:35,500
No, Dr. Posner's--
No, no.

1669
01:31:35,500 --> 01:31:36,834
MAN: I got it. I got it.

1670
01:31:36,834 --> 01:31:37,800
WOMAN: Move the bed.

1671
01:31:37,800 --> 01:31:38,967
No, no, no, no. The
patient is no code.

1672
01:31:38,967 --> 01:31:40,400
She's DNR!
Let's go.
Let's move it.

1673
01:31:40,400 --> 01:31:41,300
SUSIE: The patient is DNR!

1674
01:31:41,300 --> 01:31:42,533
MAN: OK, unit staff
clear!

1675
01:31:42,533 --> 01:31:43,800
SUSIE: She's--Listen,
she's do not resuscitate...

1676
01:31:43,800 --> 01:31:45,367
MAN: Back away
from the bed.

1677
01:31:45,367 --> 01:31:46,567
Put the machine on.
Let's go.

1678
01:31:46,567 --> 01:31:47,633
She's do not resuscitate.
The patient is no--

1679
01:31:47,633 --> 01:31:48,900
The patient is
no code!
She has no pulse.

1680
01:31:48,900 --> 01:31:49,934
The patient is
no code...

1681
01:31:49,934 --> 01:31:51,133
Get that board under.
Let's roll her. Ready?

1682
01:31:51,133 --> 01:31:52,233
I'm the doctor...

1683
01:31:52,233 --> 01:31:53,867
SUSIE: Stop it!
WOMAN:
She's charging.

1684
01:31:53,867 --> 01:31:56,033
Please listen to me.
JASON: No.

1685
01:31:56,033 --> 01:31:56,867
Keep it going.
Bicarb amp...

1686
01:31:56,867 --> 01:31:58,567
She's do not resuscitate!

1687
01:31:58,567 --> 01:31:59,667
Do not resuscitate.

1688
01:31:59,667 --> 01:32:01,166
Hey. She's no code.

1689
01:32:01,166 --> 01:32:02,834
Move out of
the way. Go!

1690
01:32:02,834 --> 01:32:04,667
MAN: Still no
reading, no pulse...

1691
01:32:04,667 --> 01:32:05,934
Clear!

1692
01:32:05,934 --> 01:32:08,133
JASON: Hey. Hey,
listen, I made a mistake!

1693
01:32:08,133 --> 01:32:10,667
No code. The patient
is no code!

1694
01:32:10,667 --> 01:32:12,700
Who the hell
are you?

1695
01:32:12,700 --> 01:32:14,100
I'm Sue Monahan. I'm
the primary nurse.

1696
01:32:14,100 --> 01:32:15,533
Let me see
the Goddamn chart.

1697
01:32:15,533 --> 01:32:16,867
WOMAN: Should we stop?

1698
01:32:18,433 --> 01:32:19,967
The patient
is no code.

1699
01:32:19,967 --> 01:32:20,900
Just get away
from her.

1700
01:32:20,900 --> 01:32:23,300
"Do not
resuscitate. Kelekian."

1701
01:32:23,300 --> 01:32:25,200
The order was
put in yesterday.

1702
01:32:25,200 --> 01:32:26,233
It's a doctor screw-up.

1703
01:32:26,233 --> 01:32:27,800
WOMAN: What is he,
a resident?

1704
01:32:27,800 --> 01:32:30,033
Got us up here
on a DNR.

1705
01:32:31,233 --> 01:32:33,533
Called a code
on a no-code.

1706
01:33:13,734 --> 01:33:16,900
♪

1707
01:33:19,266 --> 01:33:25,600
BEARING: "Death be not proud,
though some have called thee

1708
01:33:25,600 --> 01:33:31,166
"Mighty and dreadful,
for, thou art not so,"

1709
01:33:34,266 --> 01:33:39,133
"For, those, whom thou
think'st, thou dost overthrow,

1710
01:33:39,133 --> 01:33:46,300
"Die not, poor Death,
nor yet canst thou kill me.

1711
01:33:46,300 --> 01:33:54,867
"Thou art slave to Fate, Chance,
kings, and desperate men,

1712
01:33:54,867 --> 01:34:00,166
"And dost with poison, war,
and sickness dwell,

1713
01:34:00,166 --> 01:34:05,867
"And poppy, or charms
can make us sleep as well,

1714
01:34:05,867 --> 01:34:07,967
And better than thy stroke;"

1715
01:34:10,200 --> 01:34:12,400
"why swell'st thou then;"

1716
01:34:13,967 --> 01:34:20,633
"One short sleep past,
we wake eternally,

1717
01:34:20,633 --> 01:34:23,734
"And death shall be no more,"

1718
01:34:23,734 --> 01:34:26,633
comma.

1719
01:34:26,633 --> 01:34:29,333
"Death thou shalt die!"

1720
01:34:29,333 --> 01:34:31,433
♪